EVELYN!!

I HAVE MOVED!

2012-01-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

thanks dearest for helping me regain access to this blog after the huge google account mix up with my mum's account. but i've moved!

i'm now happily located at http://evelynnnnn.blogspot.com

and this fits in nicely to my impending big move to australiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

Perth!

2011-10-04T19:44:00.000+08:00

hello! i'm in perth now! but I cant use the internet! now using mum's phone:)

filter.

2011-10-01T00:36:00.000+08:00

shall blog only about the happy stuff.

munmun posted on my facebook wall early in the morning (during my chem lesson) saying "tomorrow's tomorrow's tomorrow!" hahahaha! really looking forward to the trip.

looking forward to seeing the two most impt women in my life again. haven't seen my sis since she left in january. and my mum since start of june. and of course.. casper and pika!

mum's carrying casper (on top) and sis's carrying pika (bottom) casper's mine but i heard he's hyperactive and super naughty! oh and they're brothers but casper resembles the dad more:) dad's shih tzu and mum's maltese.

and of course i'm gonna surprise someone special tmr :) plus buy things for my mum =.=
and i plan to finish exam papers tmr! :)

life so far

2011-09-25T11:44:00.002+08:00

hasn't been good to me.
though i studied hard for prelims (i know it's not very hard) but the results hasn't been telling of how much i studied. idk what's wrong! >.<
either i'm too stupid or sgedu it just too hard. idk why we must learn uni stuff in jc. can't believe that the math subjects papers (both) in satII only require one chapter from our h2 math syllabus.. and it's only a tiny proportion of the tests.. plus it's one of the easier topics! and i gave up attempting to attempt the physics or chemistry paper lest i start complaining after i attempt those papers.

can't wait to get away from this stressful place and period. nine more days! and i'll be away from s'pore for a week. of course i'll bring work to do and i think that i'd be more productive over there cause i'll have my beloved dining table which accompanied me through olevels and promos! maybe i shld bring the mind-boggling subjects like econs and chem over and think them through with the fresh air, the quietness and peace, and my favourite dining (study) table and of course.. the new environment.

nine more days!
really can't wait for this week to pass.

prelims part two

2011-09-19T21:02:00.001+08:00

has been a rollercoaster ride.. but generally a disastrous one. i think the physics department hates me a lot. but i really wanna do well for physics. gonna mug super hard for physics.. and everything else.

but meanwhile, it's a two day break. but i have so much to do! will be busy like a bumble bee on both days ):

went out with vivien today. watched johnny english! it was funny and shocking at some parts that i was covering my (gaping) mouth and vivien even asked me if i was okay. i think i seem as though i was hyperventilating. cause she knows i can't take horror movies! (imagine if we watched the horror movie!) so during shocking parts, i will still be.. well.. shocked. but anw the movie was sooooooooo funny! everyone should watch it. good emotional rollercoaster-inducer! we were so absorbed into the movie that we barely ate half of the popcorn! :)

lunch-ed at mfm (my 3rd time!) and they flamed the dory fish in front of us! i was like O.O while in awe. so cool! food was gooooood:) and worth it! first time not eating fish & chips in mfm :)

walked and walked and walked. saw filming for a new mediacorp drama! (totally should have camera-bombed) walked till all our food digested and we went for mos! but well it was mainly a drink. sat and talked and stoned. but i enjoyed myself very much. got high approx an hour before we parted cause i started hunting for things for scrapbooks. i think i found a new hobby.

anw idk why some people can just be so.. idk.. indifferent to how others feel. just feel so unvindicated and unreciprocated. it was supposed to be a simple affair but they made it bigger and bigger till i was so hyped up and then boom, it goes to naught. like huh? i was really taken aback at the sudden change. not gonna do the same thing again lest they pull the same stance.

meeting up with clarine tomorrow:) that dear girl has taken leave specially to accompany me tomorrow.
gonna develop photos for the scrapbooks! :) :)

anw my great day (except for physics) was wrecked in the evening. now i'm at a loss. on one side, it's the right thing. on the other side, it's something that i really want to do.

i need dance.

prelims here we go.

2011-09-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

six papers this week and one paper next week and then i'm done with prelims.
math paper 1, chem paper 3, econs paper 1, physics paper 3, math paper 2, chem paper 1&2, physics paper 1.
19sept 19sept 19sept quick come!

but till then, i'm going on a hiatus.

apart from facebook and twitter i guess:)

then 20sept and 21sept i shall grant myself the time to run all the necessary errands for my mum and relatives.
then it's time to pack my luggage!

5weeks to graduation.. as josephine mentioned on twitter.

different lives

2011-09-09T20:27:00.001+08:00

some people are born with a silver spoon, they have everything under the sun.
some people have lady luck shining on them, everything will turn out the way they want them to be.
some people lead a charmed life, their journey to success is more than just smooth-sailing.

i don't have any of that.
but i shall not wallow in self-pity.. i will work hard for all that i want.

but other people have the best of friends in the world. and i proudly say that i'm one of them.
i have friends who will ignore their calendar and make it for my performances no matter what. even if it's skipping cca, leaving early, coming alone.
i have friends who will purposely take leave on the days that i'm free and will be going shopping for things i need, to accompany me and spend time with me cause they know that i'll be migrating soon and want to grab every chance.
i have friends who will drop everything they're doing just to speak with me on the phone when i'm down.
i have friends whom i know are behind me and support me in my decisions, even when my parents were against them.
i have friends whom i can trust completely, just be myself in front of them. i can go crazy with them, cry until i look like a pig, laugh until i curl up on the floor etc.
and i have friends who will be the first to put their arms around me the moment my nose turns red.
i also have friends who in that split second, know that i'm lost and i'm panicky, and will put their arms round my shoulder and guide me to safety. eg when i can't see anything.

you all know who you are. and i just wanna say that i love you all a lot :)

finally!

2011-09-06T16:34:00.001+08:00

finally! i get to watch crescent's syf piece for this year.
the only word i can use to describe this is.. captivating!

it's like Hope and Vitality combined:) there are some elements of each dance in this piece and all three songs were from the same album:)

it's very nice! :)
even su laoshi commented on the video on youtube!
must cherish mr low~!

last teacher's day visit to IJ!

2011-09-05T00:31:00.002+08:00

i rushed from nj to ij on thursday and i enjoyed my time there:)

met a lot a lot of teachers! met mrs ong, whom i didn't get to take a photo with): i will go back to ij one fine day to take one:)

met 吴老师! my dearest chinese teacher who taught me when i was primary one. that was 11years ago!
got her contact number to keep-in-touch in future. she said that she's very touched that we came back to visit! she taught nik when she was in pri5 and 6 so that was about 7-8 years ago.
and she remembers that my chinese was good! (i know it isn't now) and said that nik's chinese was terrible!
awww man. love her to bits and pieces.

ms lim! she said i looked different and i went "you look different too!" she has slimmed down SO MUCH. almost couldn't recognise her!
anw i was her first AV/IT head and clarine was the vice-head. those were the days when the teachers will come knocking and looking for us. and whenever there was a huge event such as thanksgiving day mass, year-end concert, musical this and that.. we get to pon class to set up:) whether for dry run or for actual. hahahaha huge excuse and proud of it:)

mrs ang! our discipline mistress. funny thing is that we were super scared of her while we were pupils and when we graduate, we love her so so so much. same for other girls who came back to visit! i rmb her spot-checks used to taunt me a lot. and when we were running along the corridors, she'd stand there and point at us and we'd immediately stop and walk. she'd always go "walk like ladies!" unlike now, where they'd run in the opposite direction (and so she says) she even did the "point her finger" action and oh gosh it's still the same! :) :)
she has never taught me, but still seems like she does. same for mrs lewis, miss ng, ms ponni, mrs mahani, cikgu aniza etc etc i forgot alr. AV/IT is a good job:)

nik: "is there tap today?"
evelyn: "yea.. it's thursday.. ms jackie's supposed to teach if there is today! but i don't think there is.. teacher's day celebration! school ends at 2 isn't it?!"
TURNS OUT THERE WAS TAP. happy ttm!

while nik and i were walking around, gracia caught us and told us ms jackie was by the piano! we decided to hide and wait while she finish her phonecall then go on the surprise her but we walked up to her in the end.
i cried after i hugged her! i missed her sooooooooooooo much!
i would see her on the huge screens at chingay, ndp but never once did i see her in flesh!

we went back to terrorize our juniors.. or descendants as nik puts it. and we did grade3 combi (in the video below) and our grade4 warmups for the primary 2s cause ms jackie wants them to aim for it. but they are still struggling with grade3 so probs have to wait.

nik (graduated in 2004), ms jackie, i graduated in 2005 and gracia (2008)

now i'm so glad MOE changed the policy but why didn't they change it earlier?! cause now it means that every TDC, there'd be tap with ms jackie! cause tday will be on friday! >.<

anyway, i'm thankful that i managed to see, talk and dance with this dearest dearest dearest instructor of mine. i rmb she came when i was in primary 2 (nik was pri3) and we were so happy cause we hated the previous instructor (i have no memory of her) cause we did boring stuff! and we had so many people the tiny stage couldn't fit us all!

took bus together and the three of us alighted at rail mall while ms jackie continued on to her zumba class. she then msged me (cause she didn't have the numbers of the other two) and said that this was her best teacher's day ever! this was also my best teacher's day ever cause i managed to meet so many teachers at ij. and most imptly, i managed to meet ms jackie and tap with her again! i'll try to fetch my tap shoes from aust in oct and if i can't.. i'll try to borrow!

and while on the note of tap, my first ever partner, the other one who stuck it out till the very end even when everyone from our batches have left tap. she said that there'll be no one to visit ij with her next tdc alr! but there'll still be ckoo and gracia okay! :)

i'm gonna miss this girl loads. hope you settle your AHEM issue soon!

my last mid-autumn festival celebration!

2011-09-04T23:44:00.002+08:00

so wednesday i went to nanhua for mid-autumn festival celebration.
well the unhappy part included nhds and nhds only but oh well, not for me to say anymore. but laoshi did reprimand the juniors. though i think the sec3s shldn't be so obsessed with their batch and neglect everything else or else you all will end up like.. anw i was super pissed with them cause they had zero sense of responsibility. minus natalie of course. probs won't go back to visit anymore and if i do, it will only be for laoshi and ms tan before i fly.

anw the happy stuff! i managed to meet a lot of people whom i really love!

yiting! meeting her made me the most happy that night.
yiting's an ex-HODG! it's like yiting, qihui, xinyu, deborah, evelyn! so when i came in, she alr left! but i'm pretty close to her cause that time she came back with qihui during ayg prac at nanhua pri and they talked to me about lots of stuff :)

shuyun! she surprised me!
i knew she would be coming back but it's just that idk when. i was busy in the alumni room and suddenly someone ran and grabbed me on the shoulders! met her through chingay 2008 and i didn't know we can grow to be this close:)

seniors!
cheeyew! vice-chair of the batch who led nhds to it's peak!
the seniors said that my batch was like theirs HOHOHO what an honour:) and his classic "it's been a long day.." after every single syf practice! oh gosh.. those were the days.. where we fought our hearts out and dared to try everything cause everyone was there for everyone.
i also saw lihuan, siying, gladys, kaiwen, alvin and i forgot who alr!

sisters! celia, luhong, joanne, rachel, yilin, linda!
for once, i'm taller than luhong and celia! (they squatted.. but still!)

brothers! nicholas and tianjun! i also saw benedict, leon, wenxuan, douglas but didn't take photo with them!
nicholas was the nanhua bear for the night and i had to protect him for a while cause people will pull his skirt! he wore a guy shirt and a skirt so people were wondering if it was a guy or girl! and yes nicholas has to grow fatter cause the skirt was too loose!

oh gosh tianjun's shirt is very apt.

and of course! i rushed from nj to see ms tan! but she went for a medical checkup instead and wasn't back till 5plus.

i also saw laoshi! and meiman laoshi! talked to them about the current nhds, about my australia stuff. though meiman laoshi has never taught me, it felt like she has taught me for as long as laoshi and ms tan have:)

all in all, i enjoyed my last MAF in nanhua :) :)

met loads of people:) :)

these two great days

2011-09-02T00:47:00.003+08:00

but for now..

i will elaborate more during the weekend..
WITH PHOTOS!

looking forward!

2011-08-30T20:25:00.001+08:00

not that i'm following the angry bird fever but this appeared on my facebook wall at the right moment.
it really cracked me up!

i'm looking forward to tomorrow! looking forward to MAF celebrations at nanhua!
nik's coming~! happy max :) everyone should come!
but miss ng's flying tomorrow T.T i haven't gotten enough of her yet! D;

then looking forward to crash IJ with nik and gracia on 1sept. idk if i'll be going back to nh cause i will be back tmr.. but if i don't see ms sathi?! :O
but i definitely have to visit IJ cause i wanna visit all the teachers probs the last time before i migrate! don't think i'll go back to IJ after tchrs day, probs on a thursday but only for ms jackie! i wanna find my dearest 吴老师 again like last year! she'll probs say i changed a lot again =.=!
after that will be the combined birthday dinner with 石头! miss those people truckloads! :) :)

i'm also looking forward to the end of prelims (like i said on twitter) cause i can start counting down to my short R&R trip to perth and melbourne! perth royal festival! :) :) :) :)

oh gosh my life seems so exciting if prelims didn't exist..
and i haven't reached 'A's yet!

I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW ):

before i sleep

2011-08-29T02:01:00.000+08:00

okay so i decided to post this before i sleep and after hanging up on a 45mins teleconverstion.
decided to take some time from my precious sleep to reflect on whatever happened from the time of my last post till now.

so i went to s'pore poly to study on the weekends, turned out really good apart from sunday when i was too tired to concentrate. tuesday and wednesday were our study days and it was off to SP again. went to spectrum on tuesday and realised that i cannot study there at all. so on wednesday, i went back to fc5 and the time became so much more productive.

prelims began and i'm starting to get worried. esp for econs cause i really want to do well enough for me to be satisfied. even if it's a C or a D i'd be happy. for gp.. i want at least a B.

friday was also colours awards. waited for amie at the bus stop and got stares from 3 of my jh1 cafe babies. they were wondering if that was me and when i finally called out to them cause i had a burning question, they were pleasantly surprised :) went off to sogurt after that cause we are pure singaporeans who would jump at any offer but turned out that the offer ended at 8pm. oh wells, we were there anw so we still indulged in the yummy froyo. want to try frolick at nanhua on wednesday still.

went to support my instructors at their concert on saturday. i was truly in awe. i mean like srsly. horizon's concert was way better than that of the troupe i watched before syf. miss ng really inspired was O.O cause her on stage and her in person is really 180 degrees different! like she's so bubbly in person but when on stage, she's completely in character that i was not only shocked but taken along with her also:)

wu laoshi was superb. he danced the most items in the show! can't imagine how tired he is. just syf alone made me wanna die but he danced non-stop for so long. oh and we were saying that he changed costumes super fast. like he needs to change shorts and put on a top but when the cyc was up, he was there in his pose alr for "social crusader"! i was super shocked. like super duper. same for lydia.

i loved su laoshi's item the most and out of the 5 parts, i liked "love, greed, forbidden love" the most. his item really drew me into the piece as well and during the entire piece, my emotions flowed along. i was super tense the entire item except for the mat part. but i liked how the mat part suddenly brought a huge contrast to the piece. i wish that i can watch the item again. hope that i can attend the next horizon concert :)

stayed up till 4.40am to wait for the presidential election results. even though there was a recount, i still loyally waited you know! in the end, i woke up at 1pm =.= to a worried lydia cause i didn't reply her smses.

so it was miss ng's farewell dinner and i must say that i will really miss her a lot ):
she's so inspiring and she's always been there for us whenever wu laoshi blows his top. she's been through the most impt journey of njcd with us and i'm thankful that she did cause without her, the journey wouldn't have been so memorable.

no doubt she's nice, cute and patient, but i will always respect her as my instructor in and outside practice. we never disobyed her, never not listened to her.. and i think that this is smth that my juniors should bear in mind. although she already had her last practice with njcd, but this lesson should follow you in everything that you do.
nonetheless, miss ng's the youngest instructress i ever had and i believe she's the one that inspires us the most. after leaving starbucks today, i teared slightly cause it suddenly struck me that "that's it.. i'm never seeing her again" cause when she's back in two years time, i would alr have been in aust. and even if it's vacation time, idk if i'm able to come back to singapore. and even if i'm in singapore, idk if i can see her. can't just go knocking on her door and "hello!" right? i told of my teary-eyed incident to two people and they both told me the same thing, that i should be happy for her. i definitely am. indubitably, i am happy for her that she'll be chasing her dream, doing what she enjoys. but can't i just be sad that she's leaving? ): ):

maybe i can get a uni exchange to canada one day? then i can go visit her! hahahaha wishful thinking.

a great end to the weekdays!

2011-08-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

crashed (without a bang) chinese dance practice today with amie and yida. though we only stayed for 30mins? mainly just stood/sat/laid by the side and watched them refine their cny dance. had this really good feeling when I stepped in, cause everyone was working hard and not just lazing around or some people working hard, some just work on their eye power. this is the way dance practices shld be.

really love dance practices when you go there and you just train.. even if it's the most boring ji ben gong, even if it's doing crossfloor a thousand and one times, i'd still enjoy it completely. and at the end of the practice, the shiok feeling (as esther calls it) just never fails to overwhelm me and keep me going.

was so so so happy to see both my instructors today. wu laoshi playing around and saying njc 没有女人! and even cried out loud like "arhhhhhhhh!" HAHAHAHA. and miss ng! she kept bickering with wu laoshi! it was soooo funny srsly! can't imagine what dance practices will be like without her! ): though I don't have anymore dance practices in njcd. I will really miss her x10000000000! >.< ttm.

off to sleep now.. going to s'pore poly to study tmr!

the 3rd and 4th time..

2011-08-19T12:52:00.000+08:00

can't believe how hard it is to judge who are true. some people can behave as per normal in front of you, laughing, joking, acting cute and behind your back, they've actually already expressed all their dissatisfaction for the whole world to see. OMZ.

and brother hasn't replied me! >.<

things that have been keeping me going.

2011-08-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

one more week to prelims and i'm really feeling the heat.

went to support ckoo at acsi on saturday. oh gosh i'm still sour that i didn't do well enough to make it into the school. dance venia is so so so awesome. and the concert was whoosh. i think ckoo's the best female dancer in her batch. though she says that there's another girl whose techniques are really good but in terms of versatility, i think ckoo's better. and she really enjoyed every moment on stage. such a joy to watch her perform. even nik says i was biased cause i was looking at ckoo throughout the dance and not at others. for her last item, she did lifts that i did in njcd! was such a weird feeling! they did the "last pose" lift the wang laoshi way! hahahaha!

really enjoyed myself at the show. only didn't like 1 item! oh yes and the guys were gooooooooooood! i think guys that can dance like them with so much stage presence are just awesome. anw she's vice-president of dance venia now and her principal partner is the president! proud of them both. anw her principal partner is really good. i think he deserves to be pres:)

she came out of the studio and i was the first to meet and hug her hahahaha! proud of her like a gleaming mum (as i said on twitter)
will really miss these two when i go over to aust. i think they'll be the two that i miss most. 12 years and counting for nik, 11 years and counting for ckoo.

i finally saw amelia chong after 5 years! nik and ckoo were able to meet her in scgs though nik only met her a few times. and omg that girl is towering above everyone now! and she's pres of vjc dance:) happy ttm for her. pearlynn told me she was running for pres and i told her to tell me the results but seems like she forgot =.=

went to study at woodlands with clarine on sunday. did my econs case studies which were super hard! ):

oh yes and i brough pooh to school today! same with vivien, bryan and wenqi. ck brought a bear that's not pooh! it was super big! photos on facebook :)

so cute right? bryan says on facebook that this is "bring your pooh to school" week.

oh yes and of course the stats test! i got a C and i was so happy i had tears swimming in my eyes:) although it's only a C and bek says that this is an easy test but considering that i didn't study much for it, i'm happy! :) :)

i think i'll be going to SP to study on saturday cause i finally got my SP shirt! TSKTSK BROTHER!

countdown!

2011-08-12T07:31:00.000+08:00

can't believe I was so down last night.
nvm! I shall start counting down to the day when I'll see the two most impt ladies of my life soon! can't wait to fly there! but it'll be spring when I fly over! oh no..! >.<

hold back the tears!

2011-08-11T22:34:00.001+08:00

mummy dearest called again, 2nd time today. and i really miss her a lot! but she never fails to encourage me even though she's now in another continent.

i think i'm really fortunate to have such a great mummy.

she calls every morning at 5.30 to check if i'm awake.
she calls again at 6am to check if i've left the house.
she calls again at 7am to check where i am. whether i'm on the bus or in school already.
she asks me what time i end school so that she knows from what time onwards i'll be available so that she can call me during her breaks at work.
she calls me every night before she goes to bed.
and she never fails to encourage me to keep going for alevels.
she even said "if you cannot take it, just drop alevels and come over to australia. i'd rather have a happy kheng kheng"

I MISS HER! >.<

HALT!

2011-07-31T18:12:00.001+08:00

the week is passing too quickly!

wednesday had dance handover, thursday my class did the physics consol test that ended up getting cancelled but we finished the test anyway. we were rushing through to get out of the freezing library! friday had stock check! and look what i found!

the top photo is NJCD in 1998 and the bottom photo is NHDS in 2008 during mid-autumn celebrations. the costumes are exactly the same! plus for NHDS one, the top and the bottom are not from the same set of costumes! miss tan did some mix-and-match for the girls!

saturday i went to study with vivien then to celebrate josephine's birthday at marina barrage! we were joined by bryan and yiren later, then subsequently nicholas who came after his ndp rehearsal ended.

we studied at bk and saw a lesbian couple near us like O.O! we decided to go to the food junction for lunch instead. then went to buy a helium balloon for josephine!

met up with shiya and we went to get drinks! then we walked all the way to The Shoppes cause vivien hasn't been there before and we had extra time!

rest of the photos were taken by meryl :) :)

i miss this girl! though i see her in school everyday cause her class is just beside mine, i miss going out with her (and the korean buddies) and just being each other's energizer batteries! refer to my july 2010 archive:) we promised to go out at least twice after 'A's! before i fly off!

back to the endless pile of homework! >.<

the torment has only just begun

2011-07-26T22:11:00.001+08:00

everyone's getting tired already. yes including myself. all of us are just stuck in a mad wild paper chase. yes i mean homework. i'm not complaining over little things but the work now is a lot. and many others share the same sentiments as me.

i crashed during chem lecture today and josephine crashed during physics. shiya crashed a little during chem test and jianwei posted on twitter that's it's only tuesday but he's already so tired.

during pe today, the entire gym was filled with the laughter from my class and we really enjoyed our games of badminton a lot. even if we didn't exactly play the way we were taught. "serve, clear, drop, lift, clear, drop, lift etc" we just anyhow. even if the shuttlecock bounced on the floor, we'd lift it up and continue playing. we'd continue doing our hitting out of boundaries but would run out of court to keep the rally going. and yes i'd never forget zuobing's classic "clear" (: cute and funny ttm. we were all having so much fun. it's like we were just released from jail. everyone really went crazy. and no wonder my class always look forward to pe. (:

revision packages are being printed every single day. today we got the pure math one and the prelim papers one. last week we got the statistics one. econs. chem. all coming in..

next week onwards i will completely focus already. after tomorrow when we hand over, after friday when i no longer have cafe (i really really hope), i'll be able to stay back after school every single day to do work. need to keep up with the pack in this mad wild paper chase.

jiayou everyone! looking forward to the natl day hols! but i'm not looking forward to august because it'll be a crazy month.

need to work faster!

2011-07-24T22:47:00.000+08:00

i need to learn how to do work faster!
i take super long to do my homework. esp math and econs! for math i can't skip steps when i'm writing the working, otherwise i'll get lost. for econs.. i keep having to refer to the notes! (this is bad) and i won't know what the question is asking for until i go to class but i have to attempt the questions beforehand and i don't wanna do it in a slipshod manner! ):

i need more time >.<

work is piling up but my motivation is draining out..

every week i just look forward to the weekends! it's time to exercise the "3 parent letters" before term3 is up. but the thing is... i won't. but i know that term4 i'll definitely use 1 alr.

back to econs.

beside.

2011-07-20T23:23:00.000+08:00

serious lack of updates. life hasn't been good to me these days. homework has been piling up and tormenting the living hell out of me. esp chem and econs. i can't believe that i stayed up to do transition elements tutorial on sunday night till monday morning only to let it remain in my file the entire chem lesson on monday. and ytd i stayed up for reaction kinetics and it stayed in my file too. what is this. i could've used the precious time to catch some sleep. nodding off in class isn't exactly enjoyable.

science lectures now are pointless. what's the point of going through the questions, when you don't let us check our answers and copy the solutions if our answers are wrong. then keep rushing us through the lectures saying the famous line "don't need to copy, solutions will be uploaded onto km" so why am i in the lt during science lectures? initially, we rush frantically.. then we give up trying to copy.. then we go off to dreamland.

i've been sick since last wednesday and today i'm so much better alr but still, there's a lot of phlegm down in my throat and trapped in my nasal canal somewhere. but at least i'm better off than josephine. that girl is still coughing and she has been sick since week 1! really hope she recovers super soon.

common test results were completely disappointing. but i'll work doubly hard now. it's the last lap. and i don't wanna smoke my entire life away.

i can't wait for after As. i wanna dance till i'm tired every single day. cause the feeling of being tired after a long day of dancing is just super good. esp if you've danced super hard. really miss those practices where we would push ourselves to break our own limits every single practice.. coming home and feel like flopping on the bed without even bathing cause you're too tired. but there was still assignments due. back then, i would stay up willingly to complete those assignments cause i know i had enjoyed dance a lot and thus had a price to pay. but now... i just feel like giving up on everything. but right now, it's where determination comes in.

what do you see?
the mountain of homework.
being reprimanded.
being told to do it all over again.
being ridiculed by others.
not able to do it well.

what do i see?
challenges.

same for studies, same for dance.

brothers and sisters for life

2011-07-13T21:40:00.002+08:00

hello batchmates i miss you all!

i was looking through our batch blog that day. just decided to click on that link and read through the whole first page. memories came flooding back and i realised how much i miss this group of people. we were always there for each other, even when dance practices have stopped for us after ayg and after we've stepped down, we were still there for one another. though not really beside each other but i could still feeeeeeeeeeeeel it. like when we see each other around in school, in classes like pure geog and ehist and all. there was just some kind of bond that kept each and everyone of us going. esp for the olevels.

i'm sorry but this photo is just such a laugh-inducer. i forgot whose idea was this. douglas's? or nicholas's?
and of course! the guys (okay two guys) who were more melancholic than the girls. and yes i mean nicholas and tianjun! nicholas who made cards for us. idk if it's for exco only or for everyone. though it was super simple. just words written on a card (those you use for presentation), but it meant a lot. and I STILL KEEP IT. and of course tianjun with his smses telling us to jiayou. saying that we've done the sch proud in syf, ndp, ayg and all that and now it's our final lap! i think he did that for prelims also.

and the girls! i'll never forget how much support i had from them when we just took over. really love this bunch truckloads. and i really love this dance! (: (:

and of course the never-say-die, everything-also-can exco who loves dance a lot. we'd do anything for dance (: staying back till late, all uniting to scold dance if they really needed it and our exco meetings with the talking keys! (: we'd be able to count on anyone and everyone to do something. amazing exco. really.

and i rmb how we all sacrificed so much for dance, coming back on saturdays to make props for ndp, staying back after school everyday for dance stuff. wash props and all. and of course going to the mama shop across the road to buy poles for ayg! my first time in my life buying those hanging clothes pole HAHAHAHA. oh and i rmb tianjun and wenxuan being very strict about the glue gun cause it was hot and so they made sure the girls don't touch it. hahahaha the agonizing ndp 2008 prop.

photo above from ndp 2008! when we just took over. i'd never forget that night when we did 100 push-ups in the parade square after we reached school at about 10 plus. the last 10 being "dance-hood" push-ups. rmb? in dance, there is brotherhood, there is sisterhood, but there is also dance-hood. so we changed to everyone shouting dance-hood instead of guys shouting brotherhood and girls shouting sisterhood.

okay this photo is not of the entire batch. just all the girls and the guys who came to support us at speech day 2009! (: and of course our dearest laoshi!

ord!
just realised how much i miss them and how long i haven't seen them already!

alright back to chem.
just thought i'd dedicate a small post to my favourite group of people in nanhua whom i haven't seen in a long time.
nhds was a blast and if i had a chance to make my choice between scgs and nhhs again, i would've chosen the same.

cause nhds is like no other (:

mission foods finals!

2011-07-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

the diamonds vs silver ferns.
from australia and new zealand respectively.

australia won! (: (: i'm alr being patriotic even before i've officially migrated there.
but no that wasn't the point, the real reason was because they were SUPER GOOD!

natalie medhurst was simply mind-blowing. she really is the world's best GA. but well i haven't seen sharelle play. sharelle didn't play at all cause she was injured but she was at the sidelines! so medhurst became the no. 1 GA for the diamonds in wnc 2011. erin bell was no. 2. really admire medhurst. esp the semi-finals against jamaica! she played till she was injured and then only did norma field erin bell out. and could tell that she was really in pain that my heart went out to her T.T

and caitlin basset! she scored the winning goal! at the very last second, the ball went through the hoop. she looked over and saw that it was counted! just as time was called! and so australia won 58-57.

natalie von bertough! she was the vice-captain but since sharelle was injured, she became captain instead and cox was named the vice-captain. she's the best centre!

gosh i'm saying everyone's good but it's true! GS and GA were all super sharp and accurate and worked very well esp with the WA and C when they tried to get to better positions to shoot. the defence part was incredible. both GK and GD were superb in the semi-circle and tgt with WD, they intercepted a lot of balls! the mid-court was mind-blowing. they were very fast. like very very very fast. did mainly short passes but passed very smartly. main credits to the wingers and centre.

overall i think the diamonds are really good! plus their determination and sheer willpower was what really impressed me. most of the game was goal-for-goal with the diamonds chasing. sometimes silver ferns will lead by 5 but the diamonds will chase it back. they even scored seven goals in a row at the start of the third quarter! (: (:

they forced extra time and forced another 7min slot after the 1st extra time was up. and they were prepared to go into a third extra time but caitlin bassett scored it at the very last second. admire her composure! cause medhurst did smth similar in the 2nd quarter but the ball went into the hoop a tad too late and so the goal did not count and diamonds trailed by 1.

diamonds all the way~

guts.
passion.
determination.

mission foods

2011-07-09T16:23:00.000+08:00

mission foods has been really good. watched the s'pore and m'sia classification match on tv just now and it really kept me still. my eyes were completely transfixed on the screen. although it was a 15-16th classification match, but I think both teams played well, esp s'pore! it's like their last match and they know they've got to win this cause the previous one they were also 15th position!

they started out slow but they really hung in there though many were super tired alr. capt jean ng was super good! really love her intercepts and admire how she always manages to predict the time of the ball and all. plus she's considerably tall, which makes it even better. she played keeper, and I think her defence was super good. the defence seemed pretty inpenetrable for both sides this time that it made me wonder how to break it a couple of times. but they managed to! :)

i think I admire the centre the most! I think she was the playmaker for a lot of times and I think she's an awesome centre! but I haven't watched our main centre play cause she broke her finger when playing south africa. but oh well... anw this centre's really good cause there were a couple of times when they could not find a way out in the semi-circle and they will pass to her and quickly move to another spot and she returns the pass very quickly! like the ball just bounces off her hand!

and of course the shooter sisters huiyan and huifen! huiyan played goal shooter while huifen played goal attack. huiyan scored a lot of goals! like every single try, it goes in! plus it's her last netball match ever cause she's gonna retire and she won player of the match! :) :)

I'm still waiting for my bus >.<

happy happy happy happy!

2011-07-06T00:06:00.000+08:00

ASG NETBALL SINGAPORE CHAMPIONS!

happy happy happy happy happy happy!

s'pore vs brunei they won 74-12.
s'pore vs thailand they won 66-21
s'pore vs malaysia they lost 31-34
so for the preliminary round, they were rank 2nd while malaysia was ranked 1st.

but they won malaysia in the finals! 47-38! close fight and a really good one!
happy happy happy happy happy happy happy!

now looking at mission foods! hope singapore can get top 12! (: (:

off to a good start!

2011-07-03T23:17:00.002+08:00

NINETEENS won brunei 74-12! happy ttm!
i'm following asg super closely. i think they have a chance to win! (: (:

mission world starts tomorrow! s'pore vs botswana!

slept my saturday away

2011-07-02T21:54:00.001+08:00

i feel like a pig now gosh. but i shall start on my work after this post. it's like mountains and mountains, heaps after heaps!
everytime i see them, i feel like this...

shermain posted on facebook that everyone should have something to look forward to in their lives. yeah i do have something to look forward to. but currently, it's the prelims starting in week 9. the sad truth of reality...

it's time to bring out the books.

YALE!

2011-06-30T21:00:00.001+08:00

linh just uploaded the 2nd photo onto facebook and she didn't know what was happening when she took the photo!

dance camp 2010 (:
best group!

dance camp 2011!

YALE 1 year anniversary! i rmb we were "group 1" but the seniors told us to come up with a name!

we're standing in order in the 2nd photo! and reverse order in the first! (:

i'm planning a surprise HOHOHO.

but it involves so much work T.T

and i don't know if i can finish it and in time! >.<

valerie (from crescent) just reminded me

2011-06-29T21:25:00.000+08:00

on facebook that 2 years ago, today, we were performing at ayg opening ceremony in the indoor stadium!
she says that today, she's looking at her juniors perform at the asg preview! (okay i know nanhua's in it too!) anyway ayg brings back lots of memories. esp the possibility that nicholas and i might not be able to perform.
and i rmb us doing our "hei-hei-hei-ha" in the middle of the indoor stadium until some people from the orchestra came to crash =.= and of course i rmb laoshi giving nicholas a ring and told him "不是结婚戒指啊!" hahahaha and gave me a necklace with an apple pendant "保佑你平平安安!"

back to school tomorrow. we have lectures for every single topic! ):

i have melancholic juniors. guys i know ayg is 2 years ago and you all miss it. but now you all have asg!

and now it has just begun

2011-06-29T00:41:00.002+08:00

common tests are over! but the race again time has just begun. the clock is ticking. everyone's mugging. and so should i. but i shall give myself a day off (that is tomorrow) before i start chasing my mountains of homework, revision packages, tutorials and what not.

anyway i think everyone's feeling like this now

or will be feeling like that soon. in the case of dear josephine who has her H3 paper tomorrow.

omgosh i actually edited that photo with my phone! photoshop express (:
anw it's off to the esplanade tomorrow to collect my free gift that i cleanly forgot to do so during the holidays and of course to just get out of the usual home-school-home-school routine. but after that, i'll be home again but i will not touch the books.

i actually almost fell asleep during chem today. seems like i used a lot of brain power today. but well chem cal got me wide and awake again so that's good. paper 2 was :| organic chem at the back was @.@ because they really tested quite some bit of details. paper 1 was... and i shall quote josephine "read the question, then choose. read, then choose. no time to think one" you get the point. 20mcq in 30mins was mind-boggling. the last 4, the ones with 3 solutions and ABCD, i jumped a lot. basically, i was speed-reading through paper1 to the best of my abilities.

math was pretty okay. though i got punched in the stomach (not literally) by shiya and josephine when they told me that the poisson formula was in MF15 =.= i couldn't recall what it was so i could prove the mean. ARGH. 2 marks just flew away.

now what's baby doing scratching my pillow?! O.O

now back here. overall math was alright (: (:
i could solve 1 complex question (as in a question on the topic complex numbers) but the other... i got my locus wrong. oh well. translation (of graphs) was HAHAHA. i drew a huge 'X' across the bottom half of the paper cause i did it wrongly. looks so ugly oh no ):

all in all, cts are over! first hurdle cleared (:
though i don't think i'll do well. but i promise to work super hard for prelims and subsequently alevels cause i think i will not get in, and i will ultimately need to use my alevel results for the courses i want to apply for (:

oh and did i mention that the new dance hoodie is super comfy?! i felt so nice and warm in the hall and gym today although it wasn't cold today. but it just made me feel so snuggly warm (:

physics wasn't hard!

2011-06-27T22:04:00.000+08:00

it was SUICIDAL.

hope to do better for math and chem tmr though i think it will be just as bad as physics.
i finally believe that minh said! that cts for sh2s is the hardest exam ever!

for all who need this:

joseph called josephine today before the paper. he was having a break in camp.

the four of us went "so sweet!"

then! my phone lighted up (: (:

mummy msged me from aust! josephine said that she really think my mum treat me very well (: (:

mummy i love you! ♥♥

the worst saikang i ever did!

2011-06-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

i just got home. TIRED TTM.
and i was supposed to be studying at cafe, so i shouldn't be that tired right? but no! omg.
one of the group of customers sitting outside around 6pm? had kids who went to take the soy sauce and dark sauce from another table and emptied both bottles into the pond. i'm not kidding.
the whole pond turned reddish-brown (like aqueous bromine). so at about 9pm when we started to keep things, kimberly, winmyo, ah heng and i started draining the water from the pond. kim and i were trying to catch the fishes. they were so small, and black, we had such a hard time and caught only about 5 out of 20 plus. HAHAHAHA.

anw drained all the water and had to fill it back in right! so i had to stay there and hold the hose. i stood, squatted, kneeled whichever for about 30mins now my ankles are sore! but it was the worst saikang ever cause there were loads of rocks, stones and pebbles inside! kids just kept throwing them in! okay i know my sister and i probably contributed about 20 but there were at least 500 inside!

apart from that we still had the usual closing stuff to do in the cafe! now i'm so tired~! >.<

and the thing is their parents didn't even say anything! plus some dark sauce landed on the pillar. kim went to touch it but couldn't tell it from the smell. then i went to touch it and told my dad it was dark sauce. plus the two containers were on the ground between the rocks! empty!

headache ttm. kim really (Y) saikang warrior (: (:

anw i just saw some aristal photos on facebook and omg there's proof that i screwed up! T.T

photo credit to Jiang Wenhuan (:

see! ahhhhhh~ this is so bad! why do i keep screwing up every single performance in nj?!

aristal 2010, cny 2011, cca carnival 2011, aristal 2011, sisc closing!

this is bad T.T

luckily the photo was so zoomed in! i feel like wailing in a corner!

just when i came to a decision...

2011-06-25T00:09:00.000+08:00

another obstacle stands in front of me.

i'm lost
i'm stuck
i'm confused
i don't know what to do.

and it's not about cts.
i should really filter and focus on cts for now.
shall start worrying about this on wednesday.

i need to have faith, hope and determination.

of my desktop wallpaper!

2011-06-24T19:28:00.001+08:00

my desktop wallpaper is now a slideshow of all my photos.
so when this photo pops up, i'll always smile to myself (:
look at baby! (: (:
this was taken on my 17th birthday. when these 4 lovelies crashed my house at around 7pm! ♥♥
i thought i couldn't meet them on that day as i had dance practice that day and the next day!

SAT1 2nd try

2011-06-23T17:58:00.002+08:00

i improved by 20 points!
but it came from the math section.
the improvement in the reading section was severely offset by my downfall in the writing section! ):
but my essay srsly sucked. 9points the previous time but only 7 points this time. expected cause the previous time i wrote about smth i could relate to! like write from the heart! (:

but omg math section i got 98th percentile! but if i didn't right, then the s'pore system would've been pretty fail. the score this time for math section was 760. and for math1 and math2 which i took last year, i got 770 & 750 respectively! in the middle! HAHAHAHA.

anw i'm still pretty shocked by the writing section T.T
but thankfully for SUPERSCORE! my superscore is really pretty average.

come to think about it...
i MIGHT try another time. to improve my superscore.
but we'll see about whatever i'm trying to apply for first.
if not then i fill learn from yida and follow the US dream!

he's really a joker. he says if his SAT results are good, then he will chase his US dream. if not he will continue his NUS dream! i told him that in writing, US and NUS only differ by 1 letter but in reality, there's much more to just a mere alphabet!

alright back to chem!

omg my sister topped her cohort for finance&accounts and MATHS! omg her math in s'pore is like struggling. i wanna teleport myself to WSHS now and start sch there! mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn~
i'm a really really really proud sister! *beams*

someone shld stab me with a pen now

2011-06-23T14:58:00.001+08:00

to prevent me from getting strangulated by anxiety!
my SAT scores aren't out yet!

what if i do badly? >.<

SAT!

2011-06-22T19:30:00.000+08:00

SAT results will be out tomorrow!
i'm really nervous. didn't do really well the first time (though i exceeded yida's target for his first and current SAT) but i wanna do better!

cause at least if i can't get into whatever that i'm planning to apply for, i can use it as a backup!
plus i don't think my alevel results will be fantastically fabulous.

can't slacken! >.< although 90% of the places in the universities are for domestic students but that doesn't guarantee me a place! >.<

and whoever that impersonator on the tagboard is,
i'm sorry but we are not together (:
and not nearly together either (:
so stop whatever you're doing thankyouverymuch.

I'd better say this now...

2011-06-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

before my brain cells all get integrated together and flood my whole brain.

I MISS DANCE AND THE DANCERS!
I miss njcd ):

integration is killing me bit by bit >.<
but if given a choice of my subject combi, I would've taken math anyway...
just no econs!
and no econs and no physics if I remained in acjc!
okay maybe no math too if I took gsc.

but anyway now I'm stuck here, with h2 math...
and so I got to grit my teeth and just do it.
arghhhhhhhhhh~

1 small pill

2011-06-18T12:29:00.000+08:00

is enough to confine me to the bed for 12 hours.

i popped my flu pill in at about 10pm last night and i felt like crashing instantly but i couldn't ):
only after i finished all the banking stuff for cafe with my dad did i crash and i woke up past 10am today. and i still feel drowsy now! T.T

idk what's gonna happen later. gonna help out at the cafe. hope i don't zone out while working!

click click click

2011-06-16T01:22:00.003+08:00

my left jaw is clicking ):
it's really uncomfortable! >.<

and i resolved to focusing on cts first and fretting about whatever i'm fretting about now after cts.

as this chapter closes, another begins.

2011-06-12T16:17:00.000+08:00

for them all, as well as for us..

continuation from the dance camp post (:

thank you linda, shermain, lukhei and xixi.
linda for the completely orange letter that made me giggle till my insides flipped.
shermain for the lovely photo at the back of the letter. really really nice and i really like it a lot (:
lukhei for the card that you bought and wishes in your letter.
xixi for the cd and the note that made me @.@ as i was reading it. make me wanna do a video too! but aye you still owe us pictures! (: (:

and of course everyone who wrote in my camp booklet (:
even xixi who wrote twice and didn't realise! (:

now that dance camp is over, it's elections then we're off to study full-time. wu laoshi says we can go back to dance when we like. but try to come as a batch (or most of the batch). maybe once or twice a month to destress! ♥♥♥ but idk if the teachers-in-charge will flip if they see us. idk. will discuss with yida and the rest of the exco and the rest of the batch. oh and must inform him beforehand which i'm sure yida will gladly do (: (:

now suddenly two of my favourite activities have left me... ):
for the girls, all those taking alevels have also stopped temporarily. as for one of my favourite group of people in NJC, we will be stepping down soon ):
but i must learn to transfer the determination and perseverance that i have learnt to my academics.

off to do reflections, reviews then to acjc i go! (: (:

motivation

2011-06-10T14:23:00.002+08:00

what do you see?
the toughest competitors.
a group of people who're dying to beat you.
scoldings from coaches & seniors.
bruises, muscle aches, getting drowned by sweat.
an impossible mission.
the tallest mountain.
hardships.
losing.
failing over and over again.

what do I see?
CHALLENGES.

caught in a tornado

2011-06-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

my life's been spinning since sunday (not literally).
came back and started my organic chem package at 11plus. did all the way till about 4am. the next day i woke up at the usual time and headed to sch for chem lesson. the thing is! there were some others who didn't even complete half of it. argh. nvm. for my own good.

then i went for lunch with shiya and vivien!

had a pretty hard time deciding between xin wang, curry wok or golden rooster. then we decided to each represent one place and did open numbers. HAHA. so we went to xin wang.

talked about a lot of stuff. from juniors to what we talked about in mos burger the previous time to classmates etc etc.

went home and started writing my poem! took a loooooooooooooong time. oh man lost touch ): did a lot of edits. i think my first draft was terrible. reading it was a chore. well after 5 long hours and a few drafts, i finished it and started printing :)

1 colour for each batch. SH2s no parchment paper sorry! but you guys all got something else (:

started a bit on the SH2s' cards... like only wrote 4 names? then i declared myself tired enough, packed my bag and headed to dreamland.

dance was okay. learnt new combinations ♥ and recap 风韵! the SH2s learnt that same part of 风韵 from wu laoshi so i took the chance to recap cause everything was whoosh BLANK =P

then taught everyone else the same part. but only did the first 4 sets that day.. ran out of time. and... the next 4 sets are a blur in my mind >.<

station games were alright. i was far far away in my station but i had fun! jinsze said she came in and got a shock cause she won't be able to think of such an obstacle course! after that i looked and felt that i was quite pro (HAHAHAHAHAHA!) cause the obstacle course was quite interesting! there were ups and downs and stations and tasks! and to think i started from a blank classroom since all the tables and chairs were at the side. hohohohoho. kudos to amie too cause she helped (: (: and we both felt like coolies moving the tables and chairs. they were all stacked pretty high up >.<

oh yes captain's ball! i was severely severely completely off-form. i think i haven't recovered fully. but this wasn't an excuse and omg i was completely >.< throughout the game! DANG. grp 5&6 got 2nd placing in the end but i enjoyed myself. esp playing smth similar to a sport that i love with the people that i love. nice combi of two :) one day i shld introduce them to netball! (:

and! i'll make sure i use a NETBALL =.= yida srsly!

went home and chionged all the cards for sh2s! wrote all the names and msgs. then made 1 card by 1 card and laminated them! but i was so tired that i started only at 9pm =.= and ended superbly close to 3am >.<

crashed terribly in chem lesson today. but once i stepped into the dance studio, it was like DING! evelyn's brimming with energy again. idk why.. it just happens :\ pranced around the studio disturbing the sh2s and helping the juniors with the makeup before i was forced by the impending dances to change out of my class tee! came back and we danced aristal 2010, cny (a bit), syf and sisc (:

but the two pillars impeded everything so we marked through a lot :\

so whatever that i msged the sh2s last night and whatever we all set out to do all didn't happen :\

amazing race was fun. though i'd rather be playing. i'm sure many of us felt the same way. it beats organising. and i really got to hand it over to xinyan's batch cause they have less people than us organising! yet the amazing race was still soooooo fun. i still keep the clues (somewhere in my drawers) and can rmb some of them!

"me vs me, you vs you, where are we?"

"去感觉一下!" i really cracked my head for this and still couldn't get it!

and many many more clues (:

reflections and writing notes. narissa's writing speed is snail-like!

more about everything else tomorrow.

i was so tired i crashed on the two buses home and am about to nod off alr!

toodles~

different individuals, one team.

2011-06-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

we came from different schools, though many were from the same but we all fought as one team.
we laughed together.
we cried together.
we got scolded together.
we sweated it out together.
we ran together.
we did arghhhhhhhhhh drills together.
we stood in a circle and counted 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8 together (and yes the most agonizing final set of eight).
we stood by the side, looked at what was ahead of us, shoulder-to-shoulder, feeling each other.
we pushed each other, spurring each other on to fight harder.
we stare at each other intensely, hoping to gather some strength from one another.

more about this another time.
i need to do my organic chem now ):
this shall be a test of my willpower!

"what do you see?"

churning inside

2011-06-04T18:48:00.000+08:00

the feeling of not having dance practices, and not knowing whether there are dance practices is eating me up. it sucks real bad ):
and the fact that i have a mountain of homework to complete by next week (such as the organic chem package due monday) and lots of things to pack and unpack ):
also, my mummy's leaving tomorrow ): migrating to australia ):

the only thing that's consoling me is that tmr is 5june and we got games to win! srsly.. "a game to win" sounds nicer.

oh and yes! SAT!
i finished first and i texted yida asking how he found the paper.
and when he finished he replied saying "i saw 'evelyn' and 'coach wu' on the paper;) "
i told him i did a double-take at my name and thought of our instructors when i saw "coach wu"!

but the essay was harder than the previous SAT i took ):
hope i do well enough.
hope my super-score will be good enough for the courses i want!

what i did on such a lovely friday

2011-06-03T23:37:00.001+08:00

slept till the sun shone right through the curtains
bugged my mum to get the waterbottle and camera for me tomorrow
discussed stuff with jinsze and asked around for answers!
PACK!
find out about the courses for clarine ♥
attempted to study for my SAT tomorrow
pack my bag for the SAT tomorrow
rummaged through the kitchen
said yes to all my mum's supper offers

i feel like a pig now >.<

off to bed.
my paper tomorrow is 3 hours and 45 mins long!

i need to pack food >.< cause apparently i don't have food delivery services like what some other students have. it's srsly very funny when your parent/boyfriend/girlfriend comes during the break with food for you when the break is only 5mins long? i always want to burst out laughing when i see them like that hahaha!

emotional rollercoaster ttm

2011-06-02T14:07:00.000+08:00

woke up in the morning to an sms from joanne saying that she managed to get hold of 2 tickets to tonight's bailamos. so i got all excited and started texting ckoo asking her if she still wants to go.
and she replied saying her dance ends at 7pm! ): and she can't go cause it's alr very last minute. but acsi is just opposite acj! nvm >.< i'll still get to meet her during third week of hols.
then i texted nik cause she said she can't make it for the friday show but she has dinner with her family tonight.
i asked amie on msn but she can't cause her parents will make things difficult for her.
i asked janice on msn but she went offline before she could reply.
i asked jinsze via text but she didn't reply.
i asked quinn and he could make it! but it was too late ):

talk about an emotional rollercoaster ride.

i miss ms jackie! now that i've moved house.. i don't stay so near ij anymore. but must find a day to go back to crash her practice!

dang.

holiday?

2011-05-31T22:24:00.000+08:00

but we have extra lessons ):
but then again... i have dance camp and dance camp preparation with my beloved dancers. talking about the dancers, they never fail to make my day, nor do they ever fail to drive me up the wall.

today was pretty fun. omg xiayin's a total 大小姐! she can just stand there and watch us "coolies" beside her move the heavy thing! but i felt that that one was pretty fun hohoho.

omg i have a whole day's worth of extra lessons tomorrow! ):
and loads of unpacking and arranging to do in my new house ):
and my acjc dance concert flew away cause jo could only get hold of 1 ticket! ): but she says she'll let me see the video though (:
WHERE'S MY ARISTAL 2010 DVD?! >.<

and my mum will be getting me my camera soon! before she flies!
just in time for the trip, dance camp, dance practices (?) and all the meet-ups that are coming my way! (:

and i badly wanna dance 风韵! the music 很有feel~!

mixture

2011-05-30T20:20:00.001+08:00

mixture of feelings going on inside me now.
sometimes I feel like a waste of space and invisible. like what I'm feeling now. like how I've felt sometime before and by the same person and the same group of people. sometimes maybe what my mum said is true.. why give so much or do so much for them when all they do is just kick you aside, when they never listened to your opinions and never call you for meetings. why offer to help when they prefer to work by themselves?

I spent hours thinking about what to do for them, I spend another few hours doing it, working till late at night and all I get is just a feeling of past caring. I'm seriously tired.. maybe after whatever's coming up, I will not want to help anymore.

un-vindicated.

I will post about sisc closing when i've settled my thoughts and emotions. or it might be just a mere whim of happiness.

you know what?! you know what?! YOU KNOW WHAT?!

2011-05-27T22:17:00.003+08:00

i have dance tomorrow! *beams*

i'm so excited (: (: i miss my dancers thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much and so much more!

i'm so excited idk if i can sleep tonight.

one whole day in school tomorrow. dancing!
and i finally get to see vivien after 12352392983847655029387465 (seven) days! she called me today when i got on the bus and i scared her about the papers on purpose! she say our song sound like indian song =.= i was like "NO!" then told her about the song and the 12 girls band. aiyo~

anw training resumes soon (okay maybe not so soon) and i miss the girls! >.<
but before it... i got an SAT.
oh man how depressing.
and how so very contrasting!

the start of hols is good (:
dance to keep me smiley the whole day tomorrow.
aust fair w clarine then hwachong dance concert at night.

depressed by econs ):

2011-05-26T19:23:00.000+08:00

i'm super stressed by econs ):
i really wanna do well enough for me to be satisfied this time ): ):
i'm super worried.

and i miss my dancers ):

what kept me going through econs.

2011-05-25T13:54:00.000+08:00

i was studying econs just now and my sister appeared online on windows live! she was having her recess and i jumped at the sight of that icon, double-clicked it and caught up with her for about 10 mins. no doubt it was short, but it certainly warmed my heart (:

two hours later, a conversation window popped open "I'M BACKKKK!" and i grinned from ear to ear. it was lunch time at willeton senior high school and that year 11 girl was near the school carpark with her friend, using her macbook (:

in an hours's time, she will be dismissed from school and two girls, one year 11 and one year 8, will head for home together just like how they head for school in the morning.

it feels as though she's somewhere in singapore, attending lessons. but in fact, she's on another continent, a 5-hour flight away from here. and i miss her so dearly.

i shall make good use of this one hour to study hard before talking to her again when she reaches tippet court.

Aristal 2011

2011-05-24T13:41:00.002+08:00

caution: photo overload!

aristal 2011 cast. photo from ryan kong.

aristal was really wonderful and I really enjoyed myself a lot. (though I kept scolding the dancers) but the exco already worked everything out and I was the bad guy aye! But all in all, I've grown to know my lovely juniors more.

all the girls just before finale. photo from xiayin.

early in the morning, I reached ucc at 8am! finished up the cards for the exco (: I had 'appointments' at 8.15 and double at 8.30 to tie hair! In the end, I tied for A LOT of other people too! oh yes and i did christel's enormous humongous bun! linda and i had to work hand-in-hand to tackle her bun! went to dressing room, briefings then dismissed them while the exco did what we discussed during the conference the day before. xixi, xiayin and angeline were supposed to iron the syf pants but they didn't know how so they sought help from our house husband YIDA! it was hilarious. the way he was ironing...with the coil over his neck and all. and then when i finished my tasks, i went to help him and kept asking him to hurry! i think the guys felt that we were super funny cause there on one side i'm like "快点! 10.45am 了!" when it was actually only 10.20am and i was jumping up and down and rushing him. and then he'll rebut me back! he'll be like "很快了! 要iron好来!" or "relax lah! 还有时间!" and the cycle repeats from 10.20am to 10.50am with 刘老师, xiayin and the guys laughing away at the side.

then 1st run. for 行云, i was super unstable cause there were photog members around and i was kind of stressed. 扇韵 was worse! yijie couldn't find me! i saw him and i went "yijie!" then he spun around and saw me =.= it was really really really funny ttm. anw i forgot what else happened. but i know that finale was T.T i kept doing my steps wrongly for the solo and i wouldn't dare to look at my instructor for fear of the deathstare ): oh yes we had to change head dress for every single run... the most agonizing is stuffing the brush back into the bun! but before the actual, i removed my bun and re-tied cause it was threatening to drop out during 2nd rehearsal. such is the result of being lazyyyyyyyyyyy~

and i had an awesome buddy wenwen! she really prepared everything nicely! and i rmb the actual performance i danced syf so hard that my throat was super dry and i kept coughing and even felt like puking. she saw and i thought she'd just take my ricola and water and prepare at my area there but no! she brought them to the toilet so that i can take it immediately after i finished changing! ♥♥♥

aristal was good (: i really enjoyed myself (: even finale! the greatest shock was the part where the mixed row had to run to the orchestra pit and i was the last girl in my side. when running down the stairs, i saw jianwei, bryan, yiren, russell, renfred and idk who else. they were sitting in the first row but the side seats. and! i'm the nearest to them =.= for that entire section where we were supposed to dance there. it was soooooooooooo embarassing! i saw them and i had this huge intake of breath unknowingly! srsly O.O

after aristal was pack pack pack and we gathered at the tables outside wanting to take photos. i saw mummy and amanda! (: (: i love the feeling of being able to sink into warm embraces after performances (: syf i had a few, ms tan, mr low, mummy, 刘老师 and i forgot who else. this time i had mummy, amanda, jiaxin, june, dancers (: felt so loved!

mummy! ♥♥

amanda! ♥♥

pearlyn, june, jiaxin and amanda! ♥♥

jianwei and renfred! ogmates and classmates! thanks for coming for both years! ♥♥

10SH14♥♥ after aristal 2011 (without a few people who came too). photo from shiya.

NJCD after aristal 2011 ♥♥♥

photo from xiayin.

aristal 2011 marked the last time we performed 行云书画 ):

行云书画 before actual performance. 包face! meant to 'attack' yida! but look at yida! hahahahaha!
photo by linh.

but i really felt super good on stage during the dance. i really could feel everyone. i gave my all as i wanted to show everyone why i'm so proud of this dance. my mum said she felt that we did better than syf.

everyone liked 扇韵飞扬 more as it was a contrast to all the dull pieces this year.

扇韵飞扬 rehearsal. photo by quinn.

miss jan lim msged me after aristal 2011!

hello yida & evelyn (: just wanted to say tt i liked e chi dance items (esp e second one) a lot. it was a nice change fr e darker pieces. well done! =) -ms jan.

♥♥♥ she's so nice!

i really am very grateful for my friends who came down to support me at aristal 2011 (: esp those who rushed over from school, LEFT CCA EARLY etc etc. and for others who whether is to support me or not, i hoped they enjoyed aristal 2011 (:

not to forget, i have two awesome instructors who made my life in NJCD this year so much more colourful.

吴老师 and Miss Ng. i love them to bits and pieces! ♥♥♥

they have taught me so much this year. scolded me, laughed at me, corrected me, cursed me (in a joking way), watched me stumble and fall etc. but i must say that i enjoyed every moment spent with them. and with much agreement from the dancers, i must say that miss ng is defintely the cutest instructor i've ever had (:

even my mum agrees she doesn't look like my instructor!

and amie, thanks for everything (:

for working so well with me during aristal esp with the planning, the briefings and for being able to draw yinting's makeup so quickly or else my hand would have been squeezed dry!

i love you! ♥♥

things that make my day.

2011-05-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

well everyone has ups and downs in life and so do I.
during the course of these three days, i realised that there is at least 1 thing that will make me smile/laugh/feel happy.

friday was clarine!
i asked her if she wanted to go to the australian universities fair with amanda and i on 29may. well amanda didn't really confirm if she wants to go or not but i decided to ask more people. so anyway she said she's alr going on 28may with her classmates and asked who i was going with. when i told her if amanda's not going, my mum will go with me, she said she'll tell her classmates on monday that she's going with me on 29may! i can't stand her being such a dear! makes me feel bad ): but it makes me (: too when i know that i have someone like her who will for me, adjust her schedule.
"i value the friend who for me, finds time on the calender. but i cherish the friend who for me, does not need to consult the calendar"
i reeeeeeeeeeeeeeally miss this girl.

saturday was yida and wu laoshi!
the role reversal at lt5 was hilarious ttm.
"老师你可以多focus一点吗?!" when he said that i can't believe that he actually blurted that out! i was literally curling up into a ball while laughing in the chair. it was really that funny. caught those priceless moments on cam. but if i upload i'd probably have to dance solo for sisc closing so i'll hold them first!
oh yes and wu laoshi couldn't believe that he choreo-ed such movements. idk what he meant by that though. was it too hard or what... idk. but he caught up fast enough. well he thought of those movements in the first place!

today it was baby!
omg when my dad wasn't looking, he stuffed his mouth into my dad's cup and started lapping up the fruit punch inside! I'M NOT JOKING.
and the cup was pretty tall so all that was left was only the area just above his eyes. it was seriously funny. never laughed this hard at baby before (:

OMZ wu laoshi just tagged himself in one video. i didn't dare to tag him!

off to sleep~

down.

2011-05-19T20:43:00.001+08:00

I feel so 失败 ):

at times like this... there's a battle going on inside me.

2011-05-17T01:13:00.000+08:00

i'm physically tired but still mentally okay. sometimes (times like now) i'll ask myself... can i still dance a not? mentally i'll be like "of course!" but physically my muscles are screaming a resounding no.

spent the entire day at ucc today.

workshop in the morning was pretty nice. they danced 6 dances for us and i was blown away. by their sharpness, neatness, expression and how they pay attention to the slightest of details. and amazing how they can dance in high heels and turn turn turn. then was class by xie4 fei1 laoshi and he taught us about how every single part of our body can dance. and his students demo-ed for us by choosing 1 part of their body to focus on for that routine. eg. leg, waist, wrist etc... then he asked for 8 students and omg yida, melvin, janice, lydia etc etc all started evelyn evelyn and they even went 瑞琼瑞琼! but HAHAHAHAHAHAHA yida got sabo-ed in the end! eh but he not bad aye!
after that! the 3 people web thing which i played before. omg we shld totally do this during camp cause it's pretty fun and encourages the dancers to think! hahahahaha this dancer told yida to lift me up! then was learning the folk dance. it was very MS TAN! really really really. ms tan loves this type of combi!

blocking was omg rushed. during the last part when they said we only had 1 min left... i was closing my eyes and praying the wu laoshi would on the music to let us dance. AND HE DID! was soooooooooooooo happy (: (:

for rehearsal i thought syf was okay. seems like i was wrong ): and miss ng say i must soften my movements during the mass part when i stand up. cause like all a lot of energy then when i contrast must contrast more. TAKE NOTE!
shan4 yun4 was omgggggg. yijie couldn't find me! then i kind of panicked during shuang ren wu already ):
finale was T.T i totally could feel my instructors death-staring me. okay maybe just one but T.T i don't want to disappoint any single one of them! super stressed cause mr gn want me to change this and change that. spring to life. change direction. etc. the 1st run i tried but when he ran finale again... i did back my original. turns out he didn't say anything and he can't also. at most i twist more only. right?!?! :)

i'm tired i'm gonna sleep now.
conference at 9am tomorrow.
and shucks should i tell wu laoshi about the brush thing? but it's like the last time we're using it! =/ i'll sleep on it before deciding tomorrow morning lest it becomes too last minute.

it's time!

2011-05-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

It's the week of aristal! workshop, blocking and rehearsal tmr... then rehearsals and ARISTAL on wednesday! I'm kind of excited. but ARGH yijie has h3 tmr so I have no idea what's gonna happen to our shuang ren wu. we were kind of pissed at him on saturday at curry wok. srsly.

but I'm excited for finale cause I think it looks nice when everyone's on stage. minus my part okay! actl for finale... I wanna see how it looks like from the audience!

and... where is my ARISTAL 2010 DVD?! dv club is SEVERELY inefficient. it has been more than a year.

I got home...

2011-05-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

and I felt like plonking on the bed and drifting off to dreamland! but NO! cause I've been a lazy prat the past few days and so I've got to do my econs aggregate supply-management policies homework and write notes for physics spa tmr. omg 'A' levels spa!

the week's going on pretty well, apart from the fact that I keep nodding off during lessons and lectures. but when it's dance time... it's DING! dance like I have galleons of energy stored up. but omg I've been soooooo tired!

Monday's practice we pulled and stretched the dance till we finished it! :D :D
Tuesday was vetting and we didn't have time to hear from mrs cheng. well apart from the fact that she thinks we're lacking people cause my sh1s were stuck in math lecture! oh and syf dance i think i really 拚了! I felt so ridiculously tired after that! TIME TO TRAIN! after that had finale practice. learnt the steps and I felt that they were okay :) not that hard to grasp. our syf dance was wayyyyyyyyyy harder. but well... it's for finale so definitely must be easier. then they dismissed and mr gn wanted to see the solos. he told me to cut away the floorwork :)
Wednesday was rehearsal. wore costume for syf and whoo I was seriously sliding everywhere! but omg we really have to go through formations for shan4 yun4! I think I had several accidents! >.< the 10 people stayed back and we did more than half of part A of finale :) I really felt sooo funny holding the exact same pose for about 15 eights! anw I felt so loved when we were posing there and mr gn asked them to cheer and show some support :) guess it really did help :)
today! was a finale practice only but omgosh I was tired cause I'm sick! srsly didn't want to go to school this morning! then was thinking of telling amie to help me dance/rmb but NO! I decided that I can't do this kind of thing so I lugged myself to school anyways. ran through the whole finale 100 times, the 50 people 200 times and the solos with every single run so about 300 runs. I'm obviously exaggerating but that's how tired I feel! >.<

dance practice tmr! I am certainly looking forward. but I think it's time they have a sense of urgency. though it's late, but better late than never!

one month and twenty days!

2011-05-08T22:17:00.000+08:00

hello i miss you all. can we meet up soon?! like before three of you come watch me at aristal?
please please please? i'm dying from a stress overload!

the craziest week

2011-05-08T21:30:00.001+08:00

is about to begin...

i'll be dancing every single day till saturday.
and i'm worried ):
we need to complete the entire dance by tomorrow and the thing is we'll still be missing people! i don't understand why or how. i mean like... it's so near aristal already. can't they just focus on dance for now? well i guess different people are just different. if it were me... i'd clear everything away, arrange it on other days or just not go, but make up for it another time. we're already so pressed for time now.

i'm worried for tuesday. i hope whatever happened last year won't happen again this year. i know last year mingyue started it so i'll try my best to control myself shld i receive that kind of news this year. but as all my dancers know... it's very hard when these things happen to me... esp when it's about them shooting me in the face with a pistol.

I AM WORRIED ):

双人舞 again!

2011-05-05T23:13:00.001+08:00

yijie finally turned up at 6pm today but we didn't manage to try cause miss ng was diao-ing the 绸扇... which includes me :) but yida and melvin taught him like 1 be the guy and 1 be the girl. HAHAHAHAHAHA. it reminds me of my stomachache laughter last december in the SR also cause melvin didn't come and yida & yijie went to "chase" angeline together. it's a scene i'd never forget :) i rmb i posted it here or maybe on evelynlovesdancing but i can't find it! but i laughed till i collapsed and literally laid curled up on the floor laughing till yida wanted to call ambulance hahahahahaha! i rmb he went to take the xiaozhu poster and pinned it on the noticeboard! oh and i rmb us making the letters NJCD with the pins :) imma bring pins on monday. SOMEONE REMIND ME :) :)

but after that we quickly try... like i teach him cause wu laoshi, yida and melvin were allllllllllllllllllllllllllllll busy ): but anyway, not bad :) must really trust a lot. esp the FISH. omzzzzzzz my first time doing. then we were about to try for the first time and i was a little bit skeptical but oh wells... there's a first time for everything so i just gritted my teeth and jump :)

and YES OMG his fan poked my elbow so badly that there are two dots that are bruised and swollen now. initially it was like a hole but got a bit of blood clot inside then it expanded outwards =.= it looks and feels funny now but hahahahahaha :)
oh yes... i've got to do my mother's day present! O.O

note to self: finish all your hmk by sunday!

Ataraxia

2011-05-02T13:48:00.000+08:00

This dance gives me the shivers. seriously.

it's so 娘 i can't stand it!

but i love this dance! it's so so so nice :)

lukhei and i were there when they competed so hohoho we contributed to the screaming and shouting after the dance :)

i think the girls did very well!

and they really deserved their gold with honours (:

off to do work!

it's MAY! ):

2011-05-02T12:18:00.000+08:00

here's what's happening in may...

organic chem lecture test >.<
dance practices for the first week! <3
post-syf celebrations! <3
principal's vetting for aristal items.
finale rehearsal 1.
aristal internal rehearsal. (note to self - tell instructors about the lighting designer)
finale rehearsal 2.
more dance practices. <3
talent development workshop.
aristal ucc rehearsal. <3
vesak day holiday = mass production day! <3
ARISTAL 2011! <3 & ):
dance practice at LT5! <3
mugging for CTs ):
common tests! ):
SISC closing ceremony! <3 & ):
off for semester break :)
and of course something else that will happen throughout may :)

may marks my last month in NJCD ):
1 last external performance... that is aristal. and 1 last internal performance... that is sisc.
and 1 last performance with the whole of njcd... aristal.

man i'll miss this bunch of people. my instructors, batch mates, juniors, NJCD.
dang.

and it also means 1 last time we're performing 行云书画! ):

time is passing wayyyyyyy to fast!
but then again... if time were to stop or to slow down... we'd start to take things for granted. and we'd not know how to cherish...

why?

2011-04-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

why can't she or why can't they see the light? why can't she/they ask themselves why it happened? why can't she/they look at things from a different perspective? I don't understand why she/they can remain so arghhhhhhhh today. I just don't understand and it sucks!

my two dearest instructors are away ): miss ng was unwell today and I've never seen her like that before... hope she gets well soon cause it definitely sucks to be sick when you're travelling.

my shuang ren wu with yijie today was super fail! twice and never go up at all! PONG. with wu laoshi once and up alr! DEATHSTARE O.O

who wants self-prac on friday? :D

SYF 2011; 行云书画♥

2011-04-24T16:02:00.004+08:00

as we waited outside, we saw mr low! he came over to us and gave all his students a hug. me, lukhei, linda, yijie, lydia, kailing, angeline! it really calmed me down a lot. idk why. but it just did (:

as we waited backstage, as we all 拜台神, i really said everything from the bottom of my heart and no it was not about the award. it was for everyone to enjoy themselves on stage, for everyone not to have any accidents so that they won't panic, for everyone to feel each other so that the audience can feel us, for our instructors to be proud of being part of NJCD.

and when i gave yida the cue, as i ran out to the starting position, i was immensely proud, yet serenely calm. throughout the whole dance, i didn't have a single tinge of nervousness, yet i was calm. i was enjoying myself thoroughly that at certain points of the dance, i wanted to break out into a smile. but yet i had sank so deep into the dance that my emotions and mood overrode it. and i could feel everyone, feel that everyone was fighting, that made me go all out. i was so focused that i lost sight of my lights and crosses and all i saw was the audience and i thought of dearest instructors, teachers, seniors, juniors and my mummy (: i saw jinsze holding liu laoshi's hand backstage and it made me fight even harder. last part, i saw lydia and kailing and it reminded me that it was the last lap, and it made me go all out. all in all, it was a magical 6.12 minutes that no words could ever describe it enough. but i'm glad that i really enjoyed myself, i'm glad that i cherished that precious 6.12 minutes. i'm glad that i was part of 行云书画 and i'm glad that i chose NJCD♥

after the dance, as we watched other schools, i was looking for jiawei when hwachong performed and i saw her!

when rv danced, my palms were clasped together, hoping that they will have a smooth performance and they did! (: then the lights came on and while walking towards the door... "瑞琼!" it was MISS TAN! (greatest surprise of the day) i went up to her and though we were in different rows, about 4 seats apart, she insisted on giving me a hug and i had to clamour over all the people to give her one (: she said that it was good and that i had really improved a lot (: (: oh and all her friends clapped at the sight of our love HAHAHAHAHA!

went out and i saw MR LOW! he said that it was pretty alright but our costume will 输人家一点点 but i didn't stay to talk to him any further cause my mummy appeared behind and i went to sink into her embrace. she was like "very good!" and she said i really really improved a lot since the last time she watched me dance (which was ayg) and she never expected that i can dance like that now HOHOHO. and she said about the costume and i argued her down (:

but inside me, i knew that it wasn't as good as they described it to be. from the expression on miss tan, mr low, mummy, wu laoshi, miss ng, our teachers ic and everyone else. our instructors decided to keep mum until about 1 hour later. and wu laoshi said that this was not our best. we were nervous. and that the mood came even later than what we showed him the day before.

we dismissed for break till 1.30pm and i went to talk to jacqueline. she asked me "what do you want to achieve in this syf?" and i told her i have already achieved it. i knew that i have achieved it when she told me at deyi that i have improved. then she said that i should already be happy because i have already achieved what i wanted. then we shouldn't be waiting for the results but be celebrating already. and she asked me what is my prized possession in syf 2011. but before i could answer, she pointed to the dancers sitting some distance away...

"they are your prized possession. they are the people that have been with you since this dance started, they are the people who laugh with you, cry with you, get scolded with you and celebrate with you. they are the people who have seen your best and your worst." spoken with every truth in it (: she didn't go in for the results, she felt that there was no need to (:

we got a gold. when they announced "performance number 1. national junior college. 国家初级学院. gold. 金奖" i was hanging onto that "gold", hoping for another 2 words behind it... but it didn't come. disappointment overwhelmed me. really. but i cried only when i saw mingyue and completely let go when she hugged me. i felt that i disappointed the seniors cause they have been helping us so much. i felt that i wanted her to be as happy for us as she felt for nanhua's gold with honours. after that, liu laoshi took me and comforted me all the way out. now i cried for a different reason. it was now tears of joy, memories, everything. on the bus i sat alone and reflected on this syf journey... listening to all the chatter. my emotions took over, it dawned upon me that my syf journey has ended, and how the gold made everything so worthwhile. it was really PURE GOLD.

this is seriously my favourite dance piece that i've ever performed in (: the closest that i've ever felt this way was probably contradictions in syf modern 2007 but still not as much as this piece. it's just sooooooo lovely and the journey sooooooo memorable. by the way, the seniors gave us that card above. nice right? :)

from the start, where all of us were skeptical. wu laoshi came across as someone who was very dao. when we learnt the movements for the now big triangle part and we found it hard to coordinate. and miss ng selected the five of us for her actions and linda ended up complaining to me saying she selected the better dancers and we had easier movements than theirs because wu laoshi gave them difficult movements. and when we proceeded to the big triangle and i actually thought that we were halfway through the dance already. and when the triangle broke and i had to move all the way to the front and had a tough battle inside because i couldn't trust myself. then i helped wu laoshi select xiayin for the 6 girls part and she kept death-staring me for quite some time. from 6 girls to 6 girls 3 guys then shuang ren wu! where my arm injury came. couldn't stretch it ):

then the 前翻! (oh the sweet memory) which was changed away and the passing of baton between angeline and amie! but in the end, shermain saved the day (: then it was the 3 girls 3 guys part! oh and when xiaoyang and angeline was down, i had to solo with the three guys, the instructors and juniors called me a man T.T

this was the day they called me a man. juniors sitting in front of the stage so the video didn't capture them. xiaoyang is there sitting down huddled up by the side of the "curtain"... angeline's toe was injured so she didn't dance. but the good thing is... after this part, i get to go in and rest! i rmb xiaoyang and i telling wu laoshi that i haven't 进场 and he dao-ed us! i rmb xiaoyang being very elated because i haven't gone backstage! like "哈哈哈! 吴老师人真的太好了!" then i would death-stare her! but he let me in for my precious 7 seconds! then mass part and the solo which made xiaoyang over the moon again. but HOHOHO it's only 4 counts, so i had something to be happy about again. to the break (:

this photo is from the video of the first day we learnt the break movements (:

i rmb learning the break movements from miss ng together with yida and lukhei. really like that set of movements (: to the 5-4-5-4 then 4-4-4-4 to the walking when i was still part of it and wu laoshi told me to stay inside and to do my movements inside. but i was having trouble because i am very vertically challenged. and another of my favourite! after the walking when we had to freestyle for 1x8! but all these were changed with the addition of the 3 big brushes. another highlight of this dance journey. i rmb we started by using the 绸 HAHAHAHA. it was so easy to use because it was way thinner (good for people with short fingers like lukhei and i) and lighter! so it was easier to control (: then we switched to the broom, which made it harder to hold! but we got used to it in the end. i rmb the initial freestyle, which made our instructors want to pull their hair out because we were drawing on a plane instead of a box. and that we were doing the same movements over and over again and among three people!

this is our 101 days in brief. if i were to write a detailed account, i'd consider publishing a book. well i have to write it here. so that when i'm olddddddd, or when any one of us in 行云书画 is olddddddd and felt like reminiscing the good old days, they can come to this post and quickly get a sense of what happened from 11January to 21April. oh the joy of having a blog (:

SYF 2011; 行云书画♥
it has really left an indelible impression in me (:

i'll never forget the expressions on everyone's faces. "yida可以去演包! melvin可以去演asthma的!"-wu laoshi.
the sweat dripping from all of us, cleaning the hall floor. "like a tap"-lukhei.
the bruises. "ninja turtle"-wu laoshi.
the blisters. "got so bad a not?!" miss ng at the sight of our leukoplasts.
the tears. "oh! 又要开tap了!"-wu laoshi.
got all these from my two blogs and lukhei's (:

as we charge forward!

2011-04-24T15:05:00.002+08:00

so we entered the "10 more days to SYF" phase and everyone was getting more excited, more nervous... everything. it was also a period where encouragements were on a high. more "jiayou"s, more "you can do it"s, more "good luck"s (from our friends), more "all the best"s (from our teachers and in my case... amy ng =.=)

costumes came. no... ONLY THE PANTS CAME. without the black cloth. wu laoshi told me and i was like what the pong ttm! cause we kind of needed the black cloth to practise since the black cloth was ultimately more of a hindrance than the pants was! but oh wells... we danced in our aristal white leotard and pants for that practice in the end. oh yes i had to do hair and makeup for that practice too. since that practice was in the gym, which has very poor ventilation, i always looked like i just stepped out of the swimming pool after each run. plus i eventually had streaks of skin colour down my blusher it was sooooo funny (: (: oh yes and i think i melted the hair gel. is that possible?

wednesday i was at my breaking point. wu laoshi was angry again. like really angry. he even flung his phone to the floor ): i was caught in between 2 people/groups of people and i was really unable to function because they just stepped over me and "taped my mouth shut" so i can't argue my way back. i really had a lot to do for wednesday practice but time was not on my side. 40 mins was seriously not enough for me to find a chance to argue back ): ):

thursday after school, i paid a visit to nanhua to see if modern's pants were suitable. i surprised miss tan in the studio! (: she really didn't expect to see me HAHAHAHA and as usual, gave me a warm and loving hug. but she's injured HAI. i told her i help her 代课 and she went "好啊好啊!" took jiamin's set and was told that mr low was downstairs! i was super surprised because his practices are usually on wednesday and friday. i was talking to yida when i was walking there and he saw my solemnnnnn expression, so he came over and put an arm around my shoulder while waiting for me to talk finish. he's so fatherly i can't stand it (: anw i told him and HE OFFERED to lend me the pants if i need it (: and he asked how many sets and i said 18 and he went "take 20" *faints* jinglin also told me they might need it for speech day (29april) and he said "nvm, i can use another set of costume" someone tell me... how to not love him? (: (: so i left nanhua with a huge spastic smile in my heart (:

skip to saturday! we were released at noon for lunch and everything. yida, melvin, xiayin and i had to do makeup and it was really a mad rush for the four of us. turns out, melvin and xiayin did traditional makeup but yida and i did contemporary makeup *cue glitter* yida, me and wu laoshi were all covered in glitter and wu laoshi started to complain why every time he goes to ucc, he'll be covered in glitter! rushed rushed rushed all over the canteen but we still got reprimanded in the end because overall, all of us were late.

UCC! ran through stage formations twice then danced once with music. the stage seemed larger. but thankfully for the 9 crosses, marking of formations seemed easier this time. i rmb my previous syf, there weren't any 9 crosses to speak of (: and huang laoshi! he made me laugh when he went "那个什么琼..!" cause he asked for my name in the atrium before we left and i had to hold back my laughter in the theatre. and he called nhat "kiap!" and he still said it very very confidently like "那个KIAP~!" and for this one, i really had to suppress my laughter very very hard cause i had to keep moving (it was the last part). oh the joy~
then the COSTUMES came! yes the remaining pieces that made our set complete. wu laoshi called me and flung my set at me and I MISSED. shucks. such is the results of self-banning from netball for idk how many months alr ): and lukhei and i changed backstage... much to the horror and protests by mrs yeo who kept shoo-ing us behind the cyc but there wasn't any time. plus we were wearing leotards =.= and there was only miss wang, liu laoshi and her! the top was suffocating. maybe cause i grew taller! but i definitely did not grow fatter! *death-stare*

danced 1.8 times more before we went out for debrief and the most classic thing that su laoshi did was to pluck the brush out from my hair cause he needed something like a pen to point at xiayin's makeup. we all turned around (including me) to search for pens in our bags and he just turned around and went "aiya nevermind, i can just use this" and he pulled me up straight and plucked the brush from my hair. such is the result of standing behind him =.= the rest had a good laugh aye!
didn't join the rest for dinner because xixi's eyes were closing alr! she wanted to go home and i decided to accompany her back since i live near her. woah she went onto the bus and crashed like almost instantly. then i woke her up at my stop and made her promise me not to sleep before she reached her bus stop :)
went home... I CRASHED (:

the next day, i woke up bright and early and went to shermain's house to make honey water! oh gosh sophy couldn't stop licking my toes and getting us to play with her. she's soooooooooooooooooo cute!

anw we made about 40 bottles and her mum stuffed 26 in the fridge while xixi came and took the remaining home. xixi found sophy ticklish! both of them were super cute (:

we tried on the makeup on monday! i had gastric like till i was breaking out in cold sweat and all. it was so super bad ): anw i went to ds1 super early and even slept there cause the rest only ended at about 4.30 and they went for gp clinic so i had the whole studio for me to sleep and do my work (:

插播! the lunch & sogurt gang minus miss ng complained that i said i was going to update but didn't! but more like i updated halfwayyyyyyyyyyyyyy~ so here is the rest... with SYF on a separate post or this post will be a mile long!

tuesday was full run with costume in the gym. the last run was super shuang cause it's like a "dance until wanna die" run (: and after that, after talking for some time, wu laoshi asked if we were still tired and i was like no (which was the truth) cause i've recovered alr. and others didn't answer so he went "dance one more time?!" and xixi went "ONZZ!" together with me. love my exco partner ♥

we were released from class early on wednesday (: wu laoshi rushed down specially for us and even stayed longer (all the way till 5.20!). practice was okay. did some cleaning up of positions and movements here and there. released at 5.30 and we went to put the things in the studio. then went home (with the sun still up!)

"oh the sandwich!"
*handstand time!*

amie, esther, evelyn, lukhei, linda.
hohoho i am a perfect example of the good thing of wearing a leotard!

amie came over to stay and baby didn't bark at her!

and we stayed up to write cards. hohoho my production rate was way faster than hers. she had 9 left plus 2 instructors = 11 and i had 16 plus 2 instructors = 18. plus she had prepared her cards beforehand and i was starting from scratch. but i finished earlier! (: and after finishing my cards did i realise that the colours fit our costume (:

piling up

2011-04-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

everything's piling up. SYF costume's expected to arrive on tuesday. make-up and hair on tuesday. (mental note to self to ask) wednesday our last self-prac before SYF. i have a lot to do! must stay focused! friday extra official practice! expected to run the dance twice or thrice in a row. so about 15-16 times? (i hope i don't die) and saturday SYF blocking at ucc!

i finally settled the aristal finale and workshop thing with wu laoshi today. settled 20 april with miss ng today. happy happy.

homework tomorrow.

“酸酸的感觉”

2011-04-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

miss ng said that today and i really felt like melting. idk why i just felt like :)
it's good that our first run can make her say that. and wu laoshi also said that everything was there. the mood, the movements, the formations. just that we haven't meet his expectations yet. but he says we're getting there. hope we keep climbing up our ladder.

TOMORROW <3

anw i really love miss ng (:

tammy :)

2011-04-04T20:55:00.001+08:00

i realised that whenever i talk to tammy, i always feel very very happy during and after the convo.
she never fails to make my day. esp after what happened today.
and i can't thank my lucky stars enough to have a senior like her.
idk how much i love tammy, i just know that i love her a lot (:
she's a senior who will make the extra effort to call the other seniors to come back to our practice.
she's a senior who will cheer us up when we're down.
she's a senior who will tell us blatantly in the face that we weren't focused.
xiexie tammy! for all these that you've done (:

i rmb the first time the seniors came back and i cried like mad while hugging mingyue cause i was stressed.
and she just stood there, held me... and let me cry my lungs out...
before she sat down in front of me and spoke.

while reflecting on that day, one thing struck me...
i can't cry in front of my dancers cause i got to stand strong for them.
i can't cry in front of my juniors cause i got to lead them.
but i can just let go and cry in front of my seniors because they will understand.
and they're just like my older brothers and sisters who love me unconditionally.

and i rmb qihui saying this... "seniors 永远都不会害你的"
it's a line that i will rmb for life. likewise when i was hodg... i told this to my juniors too.

i love my seniors and i really do :)

picking myself up

2011-04-04T20:16:00.001+08:00

this dance never fails to make me all hyped up for the fight ahead. well it kind of suits its name in this sense. it makes me forge ahead again. i like the song.

i may have cried my eyeballs out today but tomorrow, i'll dance my heart out.
lots more to improve. like i told linh... i'll definitely be working even harder from now on.
last lap... i want to push myself to my limits. i want to see how far i can go.

because like i said before, "if you don't try your best, you'll never know what your best is" and only by knowing where your "best" is... can you surpass it and go even further.

i'll definitely work doubly triply hard. tough... but i won't give up without a fight.
it's definitely worth a fight. dead skin, blisters, callous, pulled muscles, bruises, tears, sweat etc etc. i want to make every single drop of sweat count.
last but not least, i want to enjoy myself on stage. that mere 6 mins plus belongs to us and only us and i want to make a mark on the stage, in that theatre, and in the hearts of every single audience.

tired!

2011-04-02T20:40:00.000+08:00

dance was pretty okay today. yida took way more than the 15 mins I allowed him. HAI. so we didn't do much before the instructors came.

today we changed the ending. now I feel super stressed. miss ng gave actions for our ending and mine is like spin then suddenly stop then melt. oh and there's this action that I can't do! i've to start taking cha cha lessons hahahaha! dang. but I brought my brush home to practise :D wu laoshi added on to my actions and wanted me to spin the brush like... but I still can't do it the way he does! trainnnnnnnnnnn!

went to eat then separated and lukhei, shermain and I went to sogurt. walked in and someone went "evelyn!" and it was claudia! I miss her! she's been too busy to come back but she'll be back on Wednesday! tammy's arranging she says. I really love tammy :)

reached home and I was sooooo tired. slept for 3 hours till 7.20! and i'm still tired hahaha. alright... reflections.

why must this happen to me now?!

2011-03-31T21:20:00.000+08:00

why must i pull my abs muscle now? i thought it was just muscle ache, then muscle cramp. then i just confirmed that i pulled it. hurts like madddddddddddddddd. the thing is... idk how i pulled it. but it has been hurting abnormally since sunday.

cleared napfa today. all in 1 day. 2.4km at 7am was nice cause the sun wasn't trying to bake all of us. and the class girls generally did much better than our 2pm runs! all of us went under 14.30min :) i got a B and i'm like over the moon alr :) and my abs cramped during my 4th-5th round. i felt so stupid. like really. as to how it cramped... i don't know.

2pm pe was 5 stations. got A for sit-ups, inclined pull-ups and shuttle run. B for sit & reach and a C for sbj. i was seriously off form. sbj needed to tuck our legs in but i couldn't cause my abs were truly screaming. so i jumped a C and i didn't wanna re-try alr. HAI my 193cm is long gone T.T inclined needed abs too but not as much as arms and i was so tired cause of dance training the past two days plus the run in the morning. i did enough to get an A and that's it. i did it at a slower speed too. if not usually i can do about 21 way before time's up. sit-ups was the ultimate. my abs were really hurting like mad. but luckily shimin kept encouraging me. and i did just enough. i thought the board wrote >31 so i did 32. and all the girls finished before time :)

no wonder she says we're her most challenging class :)

off to read through organic chem.
my left abdominal muscle had better recover before saturday.

all the dance stuff... in evelynlovesdancing. let me know and i'll consider inviting you.

aftermath

2011-03-30T21:13:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging from my phone now. sitting on the bus. such rarity... given the time we end practices. usually we'd be packed like sardines..

practice these few days were better than that on saturday. well luckily it was or I'd have been completely demoralized. tuesday's was a little tense. well everyone was pretty apprehensive. idk why. but for me... it wasn't the aftermath of saturday, but because of monday. I realized how clear our actions are on stage. if it was clear from the 2nd floor dress circle, imagine how clear it would be to those 7 at the stalls! >.<

I was probably picturing the ucc stage all the time. for once, after a ridiculously long period of time, there was something in my mind while I was dancing. worry, nerves. both.

today was better. 基本功 was <3 as usual. tiring, challenging, but motivating me to beat my limits. learnt new crossfloor and omg my control technique still sucks. what made it worse was that my abs have been hurting since sunday!

syf was better. at least the mood is coming out and I'm really trying my best to feel my dancers and to radiate my energy to them. today we ran twice in a row and by the end of it... 吳老師 said “evelyn 的 lips 變 purple colour le!” classic. but those two runs I really danced out. did my best for both runs. and the second run although I was really tired, I felt that my body took control of itself. my actions came by itself. like some actions the back supposed to go first, then shoulder etc.. it came! kudos to muscle memory! :D

more injuries, more muscle aches, but it was definitely worth it. completely worth it. I hope we'll keep climbing the ladder.. OUR ladder.

home sweet home.

1st day of all the SYF for dance

2011-03-28T18:51:00.000+08:00

cabbed down from school to ucc with lukhei to watch rv girls. omg they blew me away. like whoosh. i love the girls ttm! they were really 柔 untillllllllllllllllll~ but i prefer watching everything close-up! and them in their dance attire cause all the 线条 all can see! and all the small little things like a small flip of the hat all can see! MAN! but nvm (: being able to watch them at combined is good enough. oh but had changes and it was really nice! i like the changes (:

then we went downstairs. saw some of our njcd seniors with their rv friends cause they were from rv. they asked us about our dance and even saw our collar pin (: they'll be coming to watch us. hope that we won't disappoint them. fighttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt! saw su laoshi after that! but he mainly said hi to our seniors cause he taught them but never really teach my batch onwards. oh wells.

waited for nanhua to come. then we were chased to the seats. watched nus high, north vista, njc, nanyang and nanhua modern. well I had different views of each dance which I shall not say. went out, did danced cheer, bus-ed back to nanhua then left (:

“不要讓我放棄你們”

2011-03-27T17:33:00.004+08:00

我不會忘記吳老師講這句話時的表情和語氣。
我真的不想讓他失望，難過，生氣。
但單靠說“不要”是沒用的…
我們一定要用行動來說服他。

昨天的練習快結束時，
我真的覺得吳老師放棄我們了。
因為他也甚麼都不管，
說“好啊，就讓黃老師改啊”
頓時，我真的非常難過，
所以情不自禁的流了眼淚。

讀了學姊的博客，發現吳老師還沒放棄，
心裡不知覺的有了一絲酸味。
她說：

有學妹跟我說吳老師放棄了他們。
其實他沒有。
如果他放棄了，他不會因為改了動作而生氣。
如果他放棄了，他不會讓你們重來好幾次。
如果他放棄了，他不會罵你們。
我相信吳老師不會放棄你們的，除非你們放棄了。

我瞭解吳老師的無奈。
因為我的動作也曾經被別人改過。
但是那時，我是在幫我SOTA的學妹。
說了是幫忙，所以我並沒那麼在乎，
但當然會有些不滿。
但吳老師不一樣。
這個構思是他在大約2006或2007想給伍老師的。
而我們現在的舞蹈，是第四個版本了。
“應該是最好的！” -伍老師
所以動作被改掉，改的和主題完全不搭…是我也早就抓狂了。

但是我們也有錯。
錯在我們跳給黃老師時，沒有跳好。
所以他才要改動作。
但現在發覺了又有甚麼用？

我希望吳老師不要放棄。
我也不會放棄的。
現在已經是最後三個星期了，我一定會加油。

我好像有兩件消息要告訴他。
是好是壞…由他來告訴我吧。

2011-03-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVELYN DEAREST!:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!~

hope you enjoyed yourself today even though it was just a simple dinner and after-dinner-act-high-class-drink at TCC:)

love you always!:D

-aman'da

last two days of full day dancing ):

2011-03-19T16:38:00.000+08:00

and so holiday practices have come to an end ):

miss ng came yesterday and she really taught us a lot for barrework (: my control technique still sucks but at least i can lift my leg off the chair for about 5 seconds! then BOOM back on the chair hahahaha! i really really have loads of things to work on! but no more holiday practices ): ):

floorwork was pretty okay. we did the scissors for two verses only and we died. hahahahahahaha! nvm next time we shall aim for more (: (: oh and miss ng went to sit on me today and push my whole back down. it was painfulllllllllllllllllllll but i was super stretched. then we moved on to syf!

we changed the parts from 5-4-5-4. now it is 4-4-4-4. lukhei will go in to take her prop first and hold yida's and mine to wait for us. then during the "free" parts yida and i will have to make our way in to take our props. then we'll come out and continue all the way till the end of the dance. omg my reverse attitude sucks. i need to work on it really badly cause it's like the audience will surely see. oh and the most hilarious is when miss ng told the three of us to think of poses and we just stared back at her with the O.O face. but hahahaha she gave them to us after that.

then lunch! it was a lot of gossipping at our table. (as it has always been for the past 2 days) this time... there's miss ng! lunch was really loads of fun :) can talk about anything under the sun (: (: *omg it rhymes!*

then lydia came up to the hall to pull me down after i've finished lunch, changed and was trying to battle my chou2. turns out! she baked a strawberry cheesecake! no wonder she asked me if i ate cheesecake a few days back. and she bought the relight-able candles! hahahahaha! anw thanks millions for everything :)

after lunch was just running through the dance over and over again. tiring but i like (:

friday! met at ang mo kio mrt at 7.15am. i srsly thought i was going to be late. turns out! i was early (: and wu laoshi gave me a big scare when he appeared behind me like very suddenly. like i turn around and O.O he was there. he keeps doing that to people ayeeeee! breakfast at s11 (i think) when i prepared my stomach for my mcmuffin. but healthy yida doesn't eat macs so oh well. both lukhei and yida don't know how to stir coffee/tea =.= i showed yida how then when wu laoshi saw lukhei cannot, he went "HAI!" then pekcek and help her stir! XD oh and we read lukhei's blog! tsktsk lukhei! luckily he didn't read the bottom! and hey you only ate 1 breakfast, 4 lunch and 1 dinner with us. not 5 lunches!

dance was pretty much okay but for the first run, our formations were off so everything off. DANG. we did a few more runs throughout the day. lunch was hilarious cause we changed to teck ghee market since we saw everyone going to chongboon market! then the invisible queue at the fish soup stall which made wu laoshi ask the rest to go back first cause of jinsze. then the both of us starting growing spiderwebs at the stall waiting for the 4 packets of food! after that both of us practically jaywalked the whole way back to deyi! the few of us rushed through our lunch then we went back to jihe in the hall (: (:

oh and he told us "看! 我有prep你们好好的!" then give the smug look. cause after lunch su laoshi led us to do some floorwork and we knew how to do (: it was generally okay until 小跳! it was super fun but confusing cause he didn't tell us which directions to turn when he started changing the order of things. then jumping jacks were OMG. i bet wu laoshi was laughing his lunch out in the control room.

after that we stayed back after dance cause su laoshi wanted to help us change some stuff. then off to dinner we went~~~ two big tables cause we had to many people. then we separated cause some of us had to leave.

dance these 4 days have been really good. i really enjoy ji ben gong even though i can't do it. and i felt that we've grown closer to each other as a family and really bonded a lot (: i was afraid we would lose our focus at deyi like we did on saturday but no we didn't! instead, our focus was stronger (: and i think the cheer really made us more together like x100000 instantly. and i think what wu laoshi said was true when i asked him about our condition today (:

and thanks dancers for my first bag of sticky sweets (: i really didn't know it was mine cause i didn't see the "happy birthday" <3 <3

first two days of full day dancing!

2011-03-16T22:20:00.004+08:00

holiday practices are so fun. ji ben gong in the morning never fails to make me look as if i just came out from a swimming pool.

anw his ji ben gong are all very challenging but it pushes me. (omg the scissors tmr is whole song! abs here we all come) and the barrework! i realise i have very poor balancing. and idk why nowadays my releve in fifth is so bad! i'm always shaking! then when have to passe OMG that's it. kaboom. my balancing is soooooooo bad ):

my control technique sucks too. hahahaha when "release!" then drop to 45 degrees when it was initially at about 90 degrees or drop to 90 degrees when it was initially at 160 degrees =.= sucksssssssssss! ): must practise practise practise. and i liked lifting the leg off the barre cause like we can lean back and find our cg (: and today he helped me do the side and really have to use a lot of core muscles! when he let go then i'll immediately spring apart T.T trainnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn~

floorwork was pretty okay. during the part where we had to hold our ankles and pull ourselves up into an arc, wu laoshi came and stretched me somemore until i was completely lifted off the ground! it was really really painful! after that i went booooooom onto the floor hahahaha! scissors tomorrow is whole song! i think i'll only be able to last two verses!

seniors came back! xinyan mingyue lihuan and tammy! they walked in and i went "YAY" super loudly hahahahahaha! really really happy that they came back (: they helped us diao the movements which we did on tuesday (: (: and did barrework and crossfloor with us! (: (: happy happy happy.

i was rubbing zambuk on my bruises peacefully (:
anw my bruises are getting more in terms of number and severity ): off to warm them now then sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep~

photos from xiayin! (:
two more days of full day dancing left T.T
miss ng is coming tomorrow! (:

no more... ):

oh and i brought two shirts today but realised it's not enough. so i'm bringing three tmr. 1 to wear to sch in the morning (which has to be family tee) and 1 to change after lunch and 1 to change after dance. like yida said "how to stop the sweat from flowing?!) i was sweating so much that today i asked some people to touch my bun and their hands got wet hahahaha!

nightnight!

"S"

2011-03-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

i think i had that expression miss ng said. shucks. i won't have it on friday i promise i'll try.

combined practice today didn't go so well. mainly because we just choreo finish and only just step into the perfection stage. unlike other schools who finished choreo in december. we only finished on wednesday. the 1st run i was really trying my best to focus. i couldn't see the audience at some parts. idk why i just couldn't. i could only see the teachers at the back... esp wu laoshi and miss ng.

my 1st run shuang ren wu failed! i didn't run into yijie enough. so like there was still a gap in between us that's why i couldn't hook his neck properly. ARGH. so i had time to run to the next position and flip (: 2nd and 3rd run shuang ren wu was successful so i couldn't flip. hai opportunity cost ): i want to keep the shuang ren wu! i think it's nice. but the flip will score points like ding ding ding so idk. he wants to change shuang ren wu though. he says not clean. i was supposed to change it for him on wednesday but we did the mass part for so long. he roughly told me and i was supposed to tell them the actions and arrange the positions. shucks now i feel so guilty for not keeping track of time well enough. lessons learnt.

and for the 1st two runs, i couldn't land properly for 1 particular jump-then-roll in our 6 girls triangle with xiaoyang in front. so now i got a humongous bruise and it is so painful that even when i walk it hurts. luckily track meet is over hahahaha!

well overall... it was bad ):
tuesday wednesday thursday. can't wait.

hope wu laoshi can fight it out. cloth will be weird! >.<

off to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! but i just woke up not long ago :)

1000th post

2011-03-05T23:35:00.000+08:00

“oh! 她要开tap了! aiyo... 他们全部又要开tap了!” classic. anw we're left with about ten more eights till we complete the dance. don't know what our ending will be like yet. wu laoshi's still in two or three shoes. today didn't go so well and hopefully tuesday he won't abandon us ):

went to watch Traces by 聚舞坊 and i felt that my 24 bucks was totally not worth it. 24 bucks for 3 performances and it's like the 1st one, the calligraphy one, wasn't impactful or helpful enough. the 2nd one was better because of the technique and pas de deux. the 3rd one was the best in terms of choreo and lifts but still not as amazing as expected. maybe my standards for dance ensemble was too high. well anw... eye-opener.

i still have loads of shows i wanna watch.
VariAsian by NUS Dance Ensemble
EC III by T.H.E. Second Dance Company
Lion King!
and of course... Voyage de La Vie

dang. no time and no moneyyyyyyyyyy ):
march hols are coming and i'm packed till i can hardly breathe.

off to update the dance blog!

first time i'm not celebrating your birthday beside you

2011-03-01T00:00:00.002+08:00

to my dearest sister who just turned 1 year older... HAPPY BIRTHDAY and i miss you terribly ): anyway you'll get your present soon :D stay healthy and happy and I LOVE YOU! :D

need a direction.

2011-02-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

i terribly need someone to hold me and tell me what to do... show me where to go... point me in the correct direction. i'm so lost. dance. academics. health. everything. i feel that i've lost myself. lost the drive that i once had... esp for academics. i'm feeling so sick of work nowadays. and as for dance... i just don't know what to do. i saw everything with my own eyes today. and i finally know how wu laoshi and miss ng feel. and it is really frustrating... like makes me want to pull my hair out.

anw star symposium was over and hahahaha it was such a great experience.

all star programme participants 2010/2011 (:

as of today... we're officially

2011-02-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

2 months away from the big showdown...

even if everyone feels like giving up tomorrow, or during this period, i won't. i'll be standing there and will continue to fight. even if i want to break down, i'll stay strong... for myself and for the whole group.

like mingyue said "每年SL 都会哭... it's normal... 但哭完了就好了hor..."

even if i should cry in future (which i definitely will)... i'll make sure i'll stand up strong again after i'm done with my tears.

and everything came crashing down

2011-02-21T19:28:00.000+08:00

first it was star quizzing.
then it was the growing number of people who can't make it tmr.
and then it's about someone who might have to leave njcd.

omg how to tell wu laoshi?!?! T.T

silicon dioxide. RRAM.

different

2011-02-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

dear jinsze, rest well and get well soon! (: i'll miss you! >.< dance will be different without you!

emotional rollercoaster

2011-02-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

today's dance was okay. they focused pretty much on amie's group. the part where i finally get the 进场 and rest! (for 2x8) =.= but it's better than nothing! they showed us the video of 行草! the dance i was telling the exco on thursday that i wanna show the dance group this coming wednesday! but my instructors beat me to it >.< nvm! i really like 行草! it's such a powerful dance!

then we did stage runs and he told us to run or move like animals. then he showed us an interview with lin hwai min. that we must move like animals on stage. we can't think. and that during rehearsals we must give 200%. well all these implies that during the actual, we must not think. everything must be muscle-memory. i must work hard >.<

and the cloudgate dancers move like grass. so wu laoshi suggested that the next time we have outing, we'll go see grass together. then move together with the grass. and he imitated them and it was hilarious. so now we shld have 2 dance outings. 1 swimmming and 1 seeing grass. XIXI START PLANNING!

seniors came back! i miss them so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much. and i really felt loads better seeing them again. well the rest... it's for me to keep inside myself (: but i really love my seniors.

after that i went to meet nik and ckoo. lunched then ice-cream. caught up a lot. and they say they'll come watch aristal! (: (:

loads to take note of. and seniors are coming back to help me on wednesday. told you they're awesome (: (:

fat.

2011-02-18T22:01:00.001+08:00

today i just came home and didn't do anything. i'm so sick of work. this week has been so packed. work was crazy... esp econs! and i rushed chem for nothing cause he didn't collect =.= so i've been slacking and eating i think i'm becoming fat! shucks.

next week is hahahaha. everyday stay back. monday star quizzing, tuesday and wednesday dance, thursday star symposium, friday dance. but hey there is dance on friday XD i don't have to wait till saturday hahahahahaha. but! after that i got to wait till tuesday :(

i realised i haven't been going out at all. life has been school - home - school - home. well apart from chingay but still... it's straight to the pit building. now it's all about work and syf. now that chingay, cny and the research project everything is over. after thurs, it'll be completely over cause we didn't get through for ssef ): ): was hoping we'll get through >.<

but well. at least i won't have to miss dance on wednesday now. cause if we get through, i'll be at science centre holding exhibition and plus the briefings and all. so it's pretty much a good thing though (:

mummy's coming for star symposium (:

first time

2011-02-15T21:29:00.002+08:00

this is probably the first time i'm feeling so down after dance practice. and there's only three letters on my mind. i feel very down esp when they go "evelyn... how?" or like "hai~" i feel suuuuuuuuuper lousy. i think i'm a completely fail SL. i look at mingyue and eunice and then look at myself... ):

i want to fight. i will fight. like i said just now "你要我做，我会做给你" and i will. no matter how painful my feet are when i'm doing that action, no matter how tired i am i will do it. and when i manage to catch the counting, i will be able to do it more smoothly.

i want to fight. i want to fight for a lot of reasons. i want to fight because i want to challenge myself, to push myself. i want to fight to prove it to myself, my parents, my friends, the whole college. i want to fight for the love of DANCE. i want to fight because i want them to remember this journey. i love you, all of you. amie, xixi, xiayin, angeline, jinsze, liutong, xiaoyang, linh, esther, linda, yijie, yida, melvin, nhat, lydia, kailing, janice, nicole, lukhei, shermain, all my sh1s and all my jh. plus my instructors wu laoshi, miss ng and wang laoshi. i want to fight for miss ng. it will greatly enhance her application to wherever... but well hopefully we'll be of help... that's why i wanna fight.

i want to fight and i will. like amie said, "if we have more time, we can do it." and i told her, "but time is apparently not on our side now." so... i'll have to make use of every free waking moment to practise. esp now i have 双人舞 and 前翻.

come on evelyn.
fight for yourself and for everyone that you love; for everyone you mentioned up there.

and the three alphabets are still in my mind. and whatever both of them said today. their concerns and my own.

focus

2011-02-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

now that chingay is over, i can fully focus on my work and syf. but frankly speaking, chingay this time round didn't take up a lot of my time. it was cny then free all the way till full-dress then the 2 parades. but well, at least i have more time now.

my feet has a lot of 破皮. and they are all open wounds. with blood oozing out T.T even walking alone is painful ):

well anyway, about saturday. dance was AWESOME. (since when wasn't dance practice good) but this time, i felt very thoroughly worked out. hahahahaha. i seem to get more worked out each time. the next time i'll probably say "i felt super worked out" or "i felt completely worked out" but hey... i like (: i forgot to bring my towel so my whole dance tee was drenched. and we're 1x8 away from 吴老师's favourite part. dang. that part is the hardest! miss ng had to leave early to go to horizon ): and i think we made her angry today. my group. the shua-shua-shua group. oh no ): i don't want to make her angry. we shouldn't be making her angry! 吴老师 also. he said he was about to burst and i was truly super scared inside. if he bursts, i'll burst too. i'll burst into tears.

but my feet are looking super disgusting. and i even had to like forcefully pull out my dead skin because we were starting from top again and the dead skin will probably irritate me while dancing and i don't have time to stop! so i just 'arghhhhhhhhhhhhh' and pulled it off my foot. oh and JUST before the shua-shua-shua, my contact lens felt like dropping off! so i looked in front and kept blinking when i was supposed to 瞪! it was super funny i felt like laughing at myself.

hmmm what else................?

oh cca carnival! my 前翻 was good! after the flip i was like "YES!" before running back to my umbrella hahahahaha. but our last pose! i jumped and landed back in a standing position cause i didn't jump towards yijie's neck! so he was like "nvm again" then i jumped on the spot and he lifted me up. but it was super unstable cause his supporting hand had to shift to keep me up there.

okay work now.

everything's tomorrow.

2011-02-08T22:53:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling so @.@ now because i've the 3 important things for tomorrow resounding in my head.
cca carnival, collect blazer, print poster.
it's like a chant that repeats itself... over and over and over and over again...

but at least after tomorrow, the blazer and poster for star symposium will be settled.

i need to do my econs now.

getting irritated by the photographers

2011-02-06T21:34:00.000+08:00

i'm getting suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper irritated by the photographers.
they refuse to send us dancers our performance photos. i am still chasing for my 2008 photos! they don't know how much those photos mean to us right!

and it's not like we'll post them on facebook! ARGH.

of my dance-dance-dance days.

2011-02-03T01:08:00.003+08:00

monday's full-dress was OMG rushed. yida suddenly told me welcoming starts at 3.30pm! when it was originally supposed to start at 4.20! so i did my welcoming without makeup. in the end they started at 3.50pm =.= i couldn't go out for shuang ren wu because guzheng was blocking me backstage. i really had to PUSH my way through but still couldn't get there on time. in the end i only went out for last pose. ARGH TTM.

tuesday! rushed from econs to dance and joined them at warmup. miss ng was leading. (i resolved to calling her miss ng in writing instead of wu3 laoshi and wu2 laoshi. so complicated!) anw... wu laoshi came and after that we had LOADS of crossfloor. okay hmmmm maybe not that much but it was tough. i even had a splinter but amie pulled it out for me. (xiexie!) the crossfloor was challenging but very fun. like it really makes me wanna work hard so i can do all those. must sustain! straighten and point! miss ng is always shouting for me to point. dang.

after that we did cny and wu laoshi changed some of the shuang ren wu. but first he taught yida/amie and yijie/me how to go up on last pose easier. and ~~omg he is super scary~~! i did the last pose with him and he told me to like sit on his shoulder. but he didn't start from the kneeling position! he started standing up and just bent down to catch me when i was near him! in the end... i was like ahhhhhhhhhh (how typical of me) and when he forced my right hand away from his left i screamed again cause i had no support but he told me to lean back and caught me in 新娘抱 to let me down.

after that he told me to jump and he was like "我不会等你了啊!" and i was like "huh?! then you want me to fly?!" and he was like "nvm just 来" and i ran/walked towards him and jumped on his shoulder and he was like WHOOSH up and as usual... "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" and i kept refusing to let go of his left hand to come down cause up there is like super stable. in the end... my slacks were filled with both wu laoshi and yijie's sweat it was so super wet like eeeeeeeeeew.

then he changed the running in part cause we were like... i shan't say here. and so now yijie has to 背 me in. so he demo-ed with miss ng and miss ng's expression was very 痛苦 cause the girls need to 撑 by themselves! and i think i kind of strangled wu laoshi cause i was hugging him super tightly and i think my arm was at his neck. oops! well anw it was hard cause really have to depend on myself! >.<

today! reached school ~~bright~~ and early. reaching school before 6am was rather shuang cause it's like super quiet! well anw today was too eventful. hmmm...

WANG LAOSHI CAME BACK! he opened the studio door and apparently i was the only one who saw and i went "WANG LAOSHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (how typical) and the whole studio looked there and suddenly there was a O.O hahahaha! even wu laoshi and miss ng! i missed him soooooo much! and he says yun men is tough! he's in second company, which is tougher cause they get to work with different types of choreographers unlike first company. and it's not even a month but he looks thinner! and he really looks shag.

hmmmm i went up for welcoming first and i was so bored i started doing my 前翻s outside the hall and science labs. mr chia saw me and he was like what are you out here for and i told him welcoming of GOH and he went "so you're gonna flip down the centre aisle?!" O.O i'll just roll across. only xiaoyang can do the continuous flips! and i was so nervous i needed a hug very badly that when i saw june, i was so relieved cause i got a big hug from her!

my best friend for the welcoming of GOH! 大头! photo by Quinn.

welcoming of GOH. photo by Quinn.

yida made me do solo cause he insisted that luke was beside him last year! T.T

after welcoming, i went straight to backstage and saw wang laoshi and miss ng with my side dancers. wu laoshi left for deyi alr. anw we were asking wang laoshi about taiwan!

performance photo by Quinn.

performance was okay. my qian fan was OMG wrong. shuang ren wu was okay. yijie forgot to 背! i was like "要背! 要背!" then he quickly grabbed my umbrella and let me hop onto his back before running off with me hanging there >.< before last pose i was holding on to him backstage cause we were both scared! but last pose was SUPER GOOD! i went up super smoothly! and i jumped and he grabbed me and whoosh i'm up! kind of near wu laoshi there alr but nvm it's good enough! like good enough for both of us to be super happy about it.

wu laoshi! we did not bully miss ng!

ultimately, i still love her cause i think she's super awesome.

back at studio, miss ng was saying that while on stage, we looked like we suddenly saw loads of angbaos cause we were smiling like :D and wu laoshi bought us ferrero rocher chocolates and bought hello panda for me (: (: then we took photos and miss ng had to leave but i went "let's give her a group hug" and all the girls immediately started chasing her! (hohoho for once they so 听话!) she went to hide behind wang laoshi and under his jacket hood =.= but wang laoshi broke free and grabbed the camera! and well... it's wang laoshi we're talking about... and so he started snapping away. miss ng threatened that this is proof to wu laoshi that we're bullying her when he's not around! >.< oops =X

compact last pose with 3 couples together instead!

the 绸 is my best friend!

these girls are simply wonderful (:

after that we went to the canteen to celebrate birthdays! i told them 1 person can only blow 1 candle if not you got to eat 2 slices of cake! and HAHAHAHAHA they listened to me and all blew one candle each. anw the cake was chocolate (it's okay) and i nicely helped them cut it. everytime also i cut huh huh huh huh huh! oh well...

i really like my jacket! and btw i like my skin tone even though it's dark but it's a healthy tone! (:

i'm helping her hold her hair! see i'm so nice!

anw the main point was that this girl gave me two mandarin oranges before i left. it was completely random and i was taken aback. so well in the next few photos... you'll see me holding the oranges cause my bag was filled to the brim with the costume and hello panda and i refused to take out the shoe bag that i brought (:

and we went to pepper lunch before walking to scape!

4 crashers at the back.

xixi my lover! 十指交扣哦!

see my super full bag! (:

all in all, i ♥ NJCD! 踏青!

all photos taken from xixi unless stated.

沛怡!

2011-01-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

omg 沛怡 opened convo on msn with me just now!

沛怡: (:
evelyn: OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG HELLO!

hahahahaha! how typical of me.

anw we caught up quite a bit. she's having her 高考 this june. hope she comes to singapore after that! she wants to! we miss each other loads! i remember we met in sec2. she came to nanhua and i was her "buddy" and i rmb crying like idk how when she left. and when i walked past the parade square i was still crying! she was outside the office and she came over to give me one last hug. i miss her soooooooooooooo much!

a short week four!

2011-01-30T14:39:00.000+08:00

it's gonna be a short week four. and it's gonna be the best. because... DANCE on monday, DANCE on tuesday and DANCE on wednesday XD

looking forwarddddddddddddd~

i suspected our math

2011-01-29T19:26:00.001+08:00

*switches on syf music* and just nice... wu laoshi calls =.= and it was only at the 4th loud word!
anw...

wu laoshi: "eh 你们只给我十五套!" *evelyn heart-attacks*
evelyn: "是吗?!?! 那天我们算了有十六套!"
"可是我现在在这边算有十五套!"
"omg! 那你星期二来拿最后一套okay?"
"uh okay"
-end-

this is a concise version and not the actual because i kept telling him to repeat himself because his side was SUPER noisy.

after that, i immediately smsed xiayin. then before she replied... wu laoshi smsed me...
"hey sorry just check someone took 2 so miscount..." =.=!

i told xiayin about the miscount and she said she almost had a heart attack too.

SCARE ME AH.

first wave of blisters and bruises

2011-01-29T00:55:00.001+08:00

dance practice today was really awesome even though it was in the small and cram ds2.

barrework was omggggggggggg tough but super awesome. SH and JH combined barrework in ds2 so the JH used the barre while the SH used the pillars and mirrors (: anw so... my rises are terrible, my passes (french) are terrible, my controls are terrible, my arms are terrible and my feet are terrible. i found out so much more about my body today. like my posture and all. need to work on them!

okay so i need to use my heel more when i rise cause i realise i'm not using enough. my passes (FRENCH) i must really lean less and when i rise up on passe, i must not lean and 'tok' the mirror! (quote miss ng) cause jinsze and i kept poking the mirror. (wu laoshi: "tuesday spring cleaning!" HAHAHAHA) controls are *faint* i'm not using my inner thigh muscles enough! i must find out how to use them because i usually can close my legs pretty steadily and fast during "go to the wall". practise practise practise! my arms! today only SH did with arms, JH didn't. and gosh my arms were so 酸! like have to lift the elbows then i'll force myself to hold there (if not wu laoshi will do weird 'arm-tangling' actions again) and i can feel the strain inside my arm. luckily from the outside, IT LOOKS FINE hahaha! my feet! during rond de jambe, there was the fast part (wu laoshi: 'football') and miss ng told me that i'll have a tendency to sickle. I BETTER FORCE MYSELF NOT TO NEXT TIME. she even held my leg there when it was in derriere only then did i realise! but in devant and ala seconde, i still sickled but i didn't realise.

body stretch was good too. changes to some parts of the exercise and now SH got to go on releve. it was tough i tell you. esp when two hands off the barre and you need to stretch out. but if miss ng can do it... why can't we? fighttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt. my favourite is still suan yao. but today i didn't do until my shirt got lifted up. maybe cause i didn't flick here flick there... which is good! (: (:

after that we separated into SH and JH at different venues. miss ng stayed with us and we did some refining of the syf movements. really corrected a lot of my movements. and at the end, when wu laoshi and the JH came back in, i felt so completely worked out. but not tired. just felt like i danced a lot. which makes me happy (: (: anw i really need to work on my travelling step. the shua-shua-shua one. how ahhhhhhhhhhh... i still think it looks weird. oh and we had the mirror today. i could see how weird my steps looked! >.<

came home not shag at all. (: but i was instead thinking about the awesome practice. from the ji ben gong to the syf movements and all. like suuuuuuuuuuuuuuper good. now, after so long of slacking... my muscles are starting to ache. but well... let it ache. i like the muscle aches though i grumble about them all the time.

all the things that happened after dance which crashed my day will not be here but on the other blog. well of course... it's about dance too. but long long after dance practice today.

tmr's friday!

2011-01-27T21:18:00.001+08:00

endured through lessons ytd and insisted on not taking a blue slip cause there's dance (: in the end i didn't go to school today because my fever was really super hot this morning. so i took panadol and slept all the way till 1pm. my fever subsided but not completely gone yet. but well i had slept enough. but after lunch, i went back to sleep again =.=

tech run was yesterday. gosh they started at 6pm when they were supposed to start at 4.30! talk about being punctual. full-dress how?!?! supposed to have 2 rehearsals! and they're gonna do welcoming first instead of finale first.
hope they'll start punctually.

tmr i end lessons at 12.30 but there's gonna be extra lessons from 1.30 to 2.30. after that i'll probably go home to settle baby first before going back to school for DANCE (: (:

i love fridays.
i really love fridays.

and my dear amie hu, you stuffed your uniform into my shoe bag. luckily i only put dance shoes in my shoe bag. and even so, my dance shoes are in a drawstring bag all the time! but anw... i washed your uniform for youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu (: (:

"it's only week 2"

2011-01-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

gosh. i forgot who said that but it's only week 2 and i'm so shag already!
i've got SAT tomorrow and got loads of tutorials and assignments! but at least i'm still coping!

tomorrow's gonna be crazy. SAT then rush down to school for dance. i think i'll take a cab you know. idk what time i'll end! T.T then it's down for media brief. got to wear the ~~ugly~~ unitard with hood. but i'm looking forward to the makeup! connie's gonna draw waves for us i think. but whichever, i think it'll be nice. then i'll leave before full-dress rehearsal and rush down to pan pacific to check out something for my mum before going to cafe for my family gathering! so i'll be out at 7.30am and will only be home at about.... 11pm?
plus it's rush rush rush!

this week's been packed. cny dance is getting better and syf dance too. i think the exco did well. like everyone improved, especially the exco. gosh now i look at xiayin dance i go O.O because compared to last time, she really relaxed more. like her actions all open up more. this is a busy period for chinese dance but i'm glad we're all working together, each doing his/her role well. esp the QMs. i really love my 2 QMs. i think they're awesome ttm.

okay STUDY.

second day!

2011-01-16T03:01:00.000+08:00

second day of our syf dance. i think i'm growing to like the dance. really really! we're gonna reach the fast part and if everything goes well, we should reach the fast part by the next practice! i'm having mixed feelings though >.< excited but scared. butwell i got to face it no matter what. so i'm choosing to be excited for it (:

i know my blog has been about a lot of dance things. i'm really growing to love my exco more and more. (tsktsk our secret which will only be out on wednesday!) i'm like super super super excited to see their reactions XD hope all the work before the big reveal goes well! tsktsk yida and angeline+xiayin! exco exco exco we'll walk hand-in-hand and fight fight fight. we'll walk through everything stronger than anyone else okay!

did i say that i'm starting to love the syf dance? okay maybe i did =P anyway i think it's unique. well at least to me cause i'm totally new to chinese dance. i came to NJCD and aristal to me was @.@ when we first started choreo. then it slowly became O.O then o.o

okay sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.